So I told a friend (its hard to explain about how we know each other) she has a lot of experience with mental health. As I say my friendship with her is difficult to explain as we aren't best friends but when i told her she was very supportive. To be honest I don't have many friends and out of my 2 best friends one doesn't get mental health and the other one fell out with me over a year ago as i was seemingly too much. TBH it was upsetting when it happened as I always asked how she was and I certainly didn't make everything about me. But anyways I told my friend about my suicidal thoughts and TBH I feel really guilty because I feel I have manipulated her into talking to me. I feel awful about putting it on her. I also worry that if I do commit suicide then she will feel guilty but I have told my therapist so i could tell my friend that he knows as this will have hopefully help her to stop worrying. TBH I just feel like I have manipulated her and I hate the thought of it.