i thought i was getting better

tragicpink

tragicpink

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#1
i stopped having panic attacks during sex but tonight i read a text post on the internet about sex and completely lost it. i don't know what to do. it's making my self harm worse too
 
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mily87

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Oct 8, 2018
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#3
Hi tragic,
I’m sorry you have to go through this. I just wanted to say #metoo

I thought I was getting better and I am in a way. The flashbacks are less frequent and I have found some ways of dealing with them better ( my boyfriends perfume makes me feel safe so I spray it during a panic attack) but today was a bad one for me.

People in my house were arguing, not badly or anything but I was instantly transported back to when I was a kid. I feel like I can’t breathe. That the atmosphere is choking me. It is happening to me all over again. My mother is standing over me and I feel like I am going to die. But in that moment I am more afraid of living with her than dying and THAT scares me.

Right now I am afraid to go to sleep because although I know I am now an adult I am petrified that when I open my eyes she will be there.

Sorry if this doesn’t help you 😔