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I think this is where i introduce myself! My name is Mo and I live in Ireland I have spent almost 40 years nursing and loved every minute of it.

Moses2002

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Due to pressure of my work i developed the bad habit of not using the hoist to transfer patients and ended up with a badly mashed up back- discs, curvature etc so i had to stop Since then i have started to take what i must call 'panic attacks' - i may be in a local store for instance and get a total feeling 'I must get out of here' sheer terror, sweating and feeling as though i were going to faint there and then- when i make it home the panic does not dispel and usually i have to go to bed for a nap This is not NORMAL BEHAVIOUR so would you all agree its panic attacks Thank you in advance Mo
 
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It does sound like panic attacks. Can you think of anything that may have triggered them. Is it to do with stopping work do you think.
There is treatment out there be it therapy or meds. But the best thing is to see your GP and tel him what’s happening to you.

Daf:hug:
 
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Thank you so much for your replies. They may well be related to giving up work as i now feel a uuseless member of society- i had a routine for years and now i am trying to fill the time in plus getting very painful steriod injections in a private clinic which costs a lot of money- and as i am no longer working i have to ask my husband to pay for them (£1200) per session twice a year so have had a lot of 'feeling a burden' on my mind but THE SPEED and sudden onset of this panic- esp the sweating- just pouring down my face, shaking like a leaf and frantically looking for the exit was something else! Now of course i am wary about going into a big supermarket alone and making a fool of myself How i even drove the car home i do not know- i just raced past my husband and said 'i have to go to bed' and once there i felt SAFE - now on reading this back it sounds so trivial but in reality its very very nerve wracking- imagine i was looking after my grand kids or driving on a motor way or holding a burning pot for example - i tried the deep breathing etc - not a bit of help I find now it is creeping up- when i wake each morning i think 'do i have to go to that store again' and this is creeping up on me- my whole day is focused on staying out of crowed places and as i live in a small local town where i am well known as i was community nurse for years i am always stopped by folk wanting to chat and i just want to GET AWAY My doc and i have a great relationship- he has looked after me for 20 years but i have not yet gone to him- i KNOW the drill- benzios will be offered - diazepam or something similar or a beta blocker but they are so darned addictive i am not sure about them and i know he will only issue them for about a month anyway and then there is a bit of withdrawal. In my mind i hope to maybe private nurse a paitent in the neighbourhood but could not dream of doing so at this time What do you all think? Just forget about working at all? I have developed diverticulitis and a stricture on the sigmoid colon and also my back problem so in pain a bit of the time so maybe that does not help Its just i was usually a competant person throughout my life and as i am only 55 i dont feel like being put out to grass yet but lack the confidence to do much else Thanks in advance Mo
 
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Sorry to hear of your ill health and these chronic attacks (which don't sound trivial at all) :hug: At the end of the day, you don't have to force yourself to do something you aren't comfortable doing. What was interesting (I hope that's the correct word), was you saying you didn't feel safe until you was in bed... Could this not feeling safe be inducing anxiety? If so, are you able to describe what brings this feeling of not being safe, and possibly what could be done to alleviate some of it :hug:
 
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Thank you for your kind reply I think the 'rushing to bed' is like a baby incased in the safe womb of its mother- I get into SUCH a state that all i can think of is' fight of flight and bed seems the safest- cuddled up in a duvet Its only when the actual 'physical panic symptoms start' the sweating, the shaking, the feeling i cannnot stand on my feet and i am going to pass out' that i must run for somewhere safe and to me its my bed. I dont know why i picked a bed in particular for safely, maybe a living room or some other room at MY house would do as well but its the feeling'whew the door is shut, now if i faint no one can see me' Its the severity of the physical feelings- they are very real and very noticeable, people have stopped me on the street and asked me was i alright as the water was pouring down my face. Its a horrible experience and as an educated nurse i should KNOW how to handle panic attacks but when it happens to YOURSELF all logic goes out the window Thank you for listening and i assume these are panic attacks and i would need to see someone inorder that i can resume my normal life again- weather it be pills or therpy Thank you all again Mo
 
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My opinion would be that, if you are able to identify the symptoms coming on it may help you to gain control of the situation, and swiftly remove yourself before things manifest themselves, or if there is a pattern to time durations, perhaps restricting yourself to a time may help. Basically anything that gives you a element of control that you can work from :)
 
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