I think I've gone hypomanic again, thoughts on this please

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Okay well idk what to put really just whats happening to me in typing whateber comes into my head cos my thoughts are going so fast i dont even recognise them lol. It started off with the end of an agitated manic state and then I felt happy and calm and wonderful, but a calm happy not a hyper happy like this hard to edxplain, its like theres happiniess equally spread out making you feel good, dont know if that helps but yeah.

This morning though I started doing stuff like planning on how to be famous, I entered a moddelling competition (get real I'm short and not skinny lol), started recording my own songs, then I started buzzing with ideas eeeeeeeeeeeee omg omg omg this is amazing but at the same time annoying I cant move quick enough for my head its like a headrush omg omg idk what to do or what im saying haha but it feels good and idk why its like everythings rushing around woo aha omg i probably sound so odd lmao but idc. I cant keep still im literally buzzing, like actually vibrating with energy I want to go out and do something hut idk what I'd love to go on holiday right now but I can't cos I'm 16 can't book anywhere lol, I want to sneak out with my friends but theyre busy, so its just me, but I want to do something AMAZINGGGGGGGGGGG, I'll probably do something stupid though haha. Argh idk thats it I guess just what should I do I like this but don't want to go full on manic :/

 

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Hi, you say you are only 16, do your parents know how you are feeling?? are you on any meds?? it is a good feeling, but it mite go on and be full blown mania so watch how you go x

 

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Nah, I can't talk to them about it, they get stressed everytime I mention my problems and stuff because they always assume it'll lead to another breakdown, so it's better to just avoid telling them and trying to hide it. :/

Nah I don't take meds, I have been before but I don't like the feeling they give to me and my doctor is awkward and is only willing to try antipsychotics with me and not any others, and I hate APs

It's come down a bit now, still there but not as intense which is good