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I think I'm suffering from paranoia . . .

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I don't know whether this is the right boards to post this question on but here goes.
For as long as I can remember I've been suffering from bouts of depression. Lately I've been feeling acutely paranoid, I think people are constantly laughing and smirking at me, I don't tend to socialise with people as it makes me feel nervous and scared.
I'm constantly concerned about the way I look . . .not because I'm vain, but I'm worried what people will think of me when they see me. Sometimes, even just on a normal day at uni, I have to change my outfit several times before I feel comfortable enough to leave the house.
Yesterday I decided to research my symptoms on the internet, I found a website which discusses the causes and symptoms of paranoia and everything seemed to be applicable to me e.g 'Paranoid personality disorder can result from negative childhood experiences fostered by a threatening domestic atmosphere' and also, I've been smoking quite a bit of marijuana lately which obviously will not be helping. I have decided the first step to take is to completely cut weed out of my life.
I'm just feeling really scared right now, I know I need some help.
What else to you suggest?
 
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If this is something that has just come on lately it may be attributed to weed
but good on you for cutting it out .This is well known to cause paranoia. Hopefully if this was causing your problem it could ease up now.

Have you a councellor at uni that maybe you could talk to about this to get another opiion as to whether you need to seek further help.
 
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I have been looking into what my uni has to offer and they have a student counselling department so I think if these symptoms persist for a while I may see about gettng in contact with them.
The only thing is, I find it very difficult to talk about my feelings, even with people I trust such as my parents and close friends, so talking to a stranger will either be really difficult or surprisingly easy, it's hard to say i suppose.
Thanks for replying.
 
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I think it's a little dangerous to try and diagnose yourself by searching on the internet. There are many factors to be taken into consideration when you are given a diagnosis. What you describe could be anxiety as a result of the depression. And if it was paranoia that doesn't mean to say that it would be a paranoid personality disorder.

Give up the smokes - best thing I ever did because it only ever made my problems worse.

Talk to your counselling service before waiting to see if the symptoms develop and also consider seeing your GP. Talking to a stranger can be very relaxing and can help considerably.

Keep in touch and let us know how things pan out. :hug:
 
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funny story about paranoia... About two months ago, on the way to my doctors, I realised I hadn't drawn my eyebrows on (I started shaving them off after someone mocked me because they moved up and down a lot, I know.. crazy..) so, I'm walking down the street, and people walking past were looking at me... what are they looking at? what's her problem? Oh god, they are looking at my eyebrows, I must look like a freak.. So I walked for a bit with my head facing down, then a car drove past me slowly, I started getting really stressed out, that person in the car knows your mental, they know that because you have no eyebrows, normal people have eyebrows.. then it got aggressive... so what if I don't have any eyebrows, that's my problem.. the next person who stares at me, I swear to god I'm going to rip their f-ing eyebrows off, and then stare at them.. then guilt... I'm only saying that because they have eyebrows.. It's not their fault I don't have eyebrows... then I started to panic a little...
By the time I had got to the doctors I was mid meltdown. I walked in and burst out crying... all over not having drawn on my eyebrows. The doctor said "you do have eyebrows... what are you going on about?"
I had drawn them on before I got dressed and I had forgotten about it altogether.Not once did I think that they might have been looking at me because I have dreadlocks and piercings.....

I echo the getting off the weed, I've not smoked it in years,it used to send me into my ownhead too much.. so not a good idea.

I'd go and talk to my doctor, if I were you. Do what I did at first.. I walked in, sat down, looked him in the eye and said "I've gone mad". It was then up to him to sort it out... lol
Hope you're feeling better soon
little me:)
 
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Hi,

I would also suggest cutting out the spliffs and give yourself a couple of weeks to see how you feel and then maybe go and see the GP and/or the counsellor.

Good luck (y)
 
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