
rubberduck
New member
Hi
Knew here, not sure if this is the right place for this. I'm having a rough time lately and have been really down, in Jan i was super down and actually depressed (i think, i didnt go to the doctor) but now i am starting to get depressed again, crying a lot, simple things seem so hard to do, hard to think, cant rationalise and i just want to take a od and die right now.
Just wanting some advice? not really got many friends to talk to, and dont want to discuss this with them anyway. most my 'closer' friends, the whole 2 i only had i have pushed away cos i felt like i meant nothing to them and they were just using me when they wanted me around and so the world is pretty lonely. i dont know how i got to this, i dont even know if i truely want to get out of it or just for my life to end, cant face carrying on if every now and then i am going to go through this. i hate my life, all i do is work, but i have no friends to enable me to go out and try have fun to get me happier again.
i dont want to go to the doctor, im sure she already thinks im insane and its that whole admitting to it and being diagnosed as depressed and i really really do not want to take antidepressants. just wondering if anyone on here has any suggestions on what i can do please?
Knew here, not sure if this is the right place for this. I'm having a rough time lately and have been really down, in Jan i was super down and actually depressed (i think, i didnt go to the doctor) but now i am starting to get depressed again, crying a lot, simple things seem so hard to do, hard to think, cant rationalise and i just want to take a od and die right now.
Just wanting some advice? not really got many friends to talk to, and dont want to discuss this with them anyway. most my 'closer' friends, the whole 2 i only had i have pushed away cos i felt like i meant nothing to them and they were just using me when they wanted me around and so the world is pretty lonely. i dont know how i got to this, i dont even know if i truely want to get out of it or just for my life to end, cant face carrying on if every now and then i am going to go through this. i hate my life, all i do is work, but i have no friends to enable me to go out and try have fun to get me happier again.
i dont want to go to the doctor, im sure she already thinks im insane and its that whole admitting to it and being diagnosed as depressed and i really really do not want to take antidepressants. just wondering if anyone on here has any suggestions on what i can do please?