- Jul 20, 2020
Sometimes I talk way too much and I say the most random boring things. I half expect someone to tell me to shut up. Most of the time I don't talk to anyone at all. Strangers (at work) seem embarrassed with me because I don't talk. Then I have a problem with my speech. It's not a medical issue or anything. I can talk normally/clearly, but I have a habit of talking really fast. It's difficult for me to slow down my speech, maybe because of anxiety, and people frequently have difficulty understanding me and sometimes I think they stare at me weird (condescending, ridiculing) when they hear me talk for the first time. I also have problems hearing people which I can't explain. It could be a coincidence — they're there, I'm here there's background noise, they spoke with a low voice...... But I tend to blame myself and I've been blamed for it too. Then I feel stupid. I try to listen and I focus, but sometimes I just can't catch all the words and it's becoming a cause of shame to me. I used to not even know I did that.