I think I suffer with binge eating disorder

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Screamingforhelp

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Okay. So I’d just like to start this off with who I am. I’m a young woman, I’m 24.

Okay, so basically, I think I am suffering with binge eating disorder. I never used to. I used to have a pretty healthy attitude towards food. This started in 2017/18. I moved into a house with my (now ex) boyfriend and I put on a lot of weight. Being quite tall, I wasn’t completely out of shape but I was overweight so I started dieting and restricting calories to lose the weight. I didn’t even realise I had put that mug on until colleagues at work mentioned it and were a little less than friendly about it and my ex boyfriend suddenly stopped being intimate so (and I know this is the wrong reason to lose weight) but to get back his attention I started to diet and restrict etc in an effort for him to find me attractive again. (He never said he wasn’t but to me lack of intimacy spoke volumes). I lost almost all the weight and then I decided to stop dieting but the issue was I still thought I was fat. My BMI would suggest I was a perfectly healthy weight. Then he moved out without warning and left me for another woman and left me to pick up the pieces. I stopped caring about my figure and ended up losing some of the weight. Fast forward 6 months and I’ve started seeing someone new and I have started eating again but the issue is I have put some of the weight back on and hate every inch of my body. I am constantly cutting calories then binge eating because I am eating too little. I am always seeking approval about my figure and weight from friends and family to no avail because they don’t know that I am suffering so badly. I am at a stage where I’ll buy lots of junk food binge badly then feel so guilty I feel sick afterward. I keep getting told I don’t look fat but all I see is fat on my body. I make myself sick. I just cannot kick the feeling that I am overweight but I restrict so much I binge and then feel bad then I try and be sensible and I eat a reasonable amount of calories for a few days then I binge then restrict then binge and I cannot stop. I feel gross.

Hope someone can help. And thank you for reading.
 
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Dear screamingforhelp. There are specialized eating disorder counselors that are very good at helping with this sort of thing, before it morphs into something worse. If you can't find a counselor, there must be books on the subject. I've had a couple decent counselors in my life but mostly have helped myself with self help books. Please try these things because you're in a cycle and need to break it.
 

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