
escape
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iv been reading over this forum for quiet a while but to be honest iv been too scared to ever say anything, the same way i am when im around people
for as long as i can remember iv been realy unhappy (i dont know id thats the right word to be honest) but i need to start at the begining . . .
when i was a small child my parents got into financial difficulty (my mother recently told me if they had sold the house at the time it wouldn't have been enough to clear the debts) my dad decided he was a couard and legged it leaveing my mum quiet frankly in the sh*t and since then things have been on a downward spiral, my sister tried to kill herself (which realy got to me and still does) my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer, both have since moved away for a fresh start and i find myself spending more and more time away from humanity
i spend whole weekends not leaving my flat once and if it wasnt for work it would probably be even longer.
last night i had a dream that realy scared me and i think i need to admit iv got a problem and try to make things better, until now iv tried to ignor my problems and how i feel and i dont think i can any longer
for as long as i can remember iv been realy unhappy (i dont know id thats the right word to be honest) but i need to start at the begining . . .
when i was a small child my parents got into financial difficulty (my mother recently told me if they had sold the house at the time it wouldn't have been enough to clear the debts) my dad decided he was a couard and legged it leaveing my mum quiet frankly in the sh*t and since then things have been on a downward spiral, my sister tried to kill herself (which realy got to me and still does) my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer, both have since moved away for a fresh start and i find myself spending more and more time away from humanity
i spend whole weekends not leaving my flat once and if it wasnt for work it would probably be even longer.
last night i had a dream that realy scared me and i think i need to admit iv got a problem and try to make things better, until now iv tried to ignor my problems and how i feel and i dont think i can any longer