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I think I just quit my job.

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Causeway

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Jun 25, 2018
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I'm not doing well. I keep ending up wandering - finding myself miles from home, sometimes alone, sometimes with my partner yelling at me asking me what I'm doing, trying to bring me home. I don't know what I'm doing. I can't keep track of time or where I am.
Booked a week off work. It just made me realise how much I've been holding back.

I only lasted about 2 hours. I didn't do anything. I just walked out.

I feel like if I go back I'm going to stab someone.

It's not the job I started with - it started as a support role, now I'm a spin doctor for another department - they mess up, broadcast it and I take the complaints. That's not what I applied for. I've been there 4 years.

I can't afford to leave. My partner has said they would support me if I did go on long-term sick leave but I couldn't cope with that.

Going to call dr tomorrow to see if I can get signed off for a few weeks to try to get better but then what?

I tried to write out what's wrong with my job and it's gone on for maybe ten pages so far. So many things that put pressure on me that I can't handle. And as we can't take leave any time, it was months before I could have a break.

Ideally I'd just move into another job in the same place but every time I apply I just don't quite get it - and now I'm such a mess I know I wouldn't.

But right now, it feels like it's killing me. I honestly don't want to live patching myself up to pretend I give a shit for 8 hours of hell a day - I just don't see a way out that wouldn't completely financially cripple my partner.

any ideas? I feel like I can't think any more.
 
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MissPink

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May 2, 2019
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Will you get paid for taking a couple of weeks off? take your weeks off for holiday pay?
 
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Causeway

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Jun 25, 2018
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It's getting paid as "sick leave" at the moment. Been signed off for 2 weeks, but every time I think about going back I'm physically sick with thinking about it.

I don't have anywhere else to go. Not in a position to apply for anything else. I don't know what to do.

If I have to leave, I wouldn't want that financial burden to be on my partner - I wouldn't want to live like that. I feel like this is just how it ends. I don't see any way out.
 
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