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I think I have ptsd

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G2695

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Hi there.
Hope all of you lovely people are well.

I suffered child sexual abuse. Grew up in a house with domestic violence and drug use. I suffered a deep bereavement before my teens and had my first psychotic episode at 14.

I don’t know if I have ptsd.
I know I hate myself. Everything I do I feel is wrong.
I don’t know how to authentically be myself and struggle to make long lasting connection to people no matter how much I try.
I feel as if I live in a time warp and nothing really makes sense. I don’t know what’s real and what’s not.

I know I need to speak about this. I’ve taken quite a lot of drugs in my 23 years, psychedelics included, I know there’s way to be set free, I feel so frightened to do so. The pain hurts too deep to open.

Does this make sense?

Peace

G x
 
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SunnyDaze

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I don't know if you have PTSD or not,only a professional can diagnose you with it.Considering that you suffered trauma(sexual abuse) it's a possibility and something you should explore with a MH professional.

Are you seeing a therapist?

I'm sorry for what you've been through.
 
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G2695

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Thank you for your time🙏🏼

I have in the past but at the moment I am not.
I sometimes get really motivated to change my approach to the issues but then on other times completely avoid it at all cost, and try my best to get my way through life.
 
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G2695

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I will check it out!
Thank you again 🙏🏼
I hope you have a lovely day
 
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