CarolCatMeow
New member
Hello!
I just found this forum and wanted to get some perspective.
I think I have BPD? I have an appt next month and the office specializes in DBT, which I think will be helpful.
I've just noticed recently how intense some of my relationships are. Friend and romantic alike. I am engaged and this is the healthiest relationship I've ever had. I can be very critical over small things but I try to monitor how nit picky I can be.
As far as friends, I've had "falling outs" with a few friends over my adult life and it's gotten to this point where I am wondering if it IS their fault or my inability to take responsibility?
I switch jobs relatively often. The longest I've worked anywhere is a year and a half and am constantly doubting my career choices and abilities..
My moods change a lot too. I've always been a pretty irritable person. I've learned to manage it better with monitoring alcohol use, meditation, journaling, etc. As of late I am easily "triggered" and am wondering why I am constantly in a tiff with someone. The biggest flags for me are my relationships and job stability. I used to be pretty impulsive; poor spending habits, promiscuous, fighting, heavy drinking... but I think SOME of that was early 20s shenanigans.
I think my dad has some sort of personality disorder and I've wondered if my mom does too (siblings also feel this way, so I'm not imagining it). So, it's possible to have inherited some sort of disorder, yeah? OR, have my parents' issues and my childhood trauma created some sort of weird anxiety/self perception thing within me? Both? Covid stress contributing to things?
If I do have BPD at least it will help explain some of my behavior but I also know there's a lot of stigma around it. My mom likes to weaponize people's mental health status as a way to delegitimize their experiences...
Bleh.
Thank you <3
I just found this forum and wanted to get some perspective.
I think I have BPD? I have an appt next month and the office specializes in DBT, which I think will be helpful.
I've just noticed recently how intense some of my relationships are. Friend and romantic alike. I am engaged and this is the healthiest relationship I've ever had. I can be very critical over small things but I try to monitor how nit picky I can be.
As far as friends, I've had "falling outs" with a few friends over my adult life and it's gotten to this point where I am wondering if it IS their fault or my inability to take responsibility?
I switch jobs relatively often. The longest I've worked anywhere is a year and a half and am constantly doubting my career choices and abilities..
My moods change a lot too. I've always been a pretty irritable person. I've learned to manage it better with monitoring alcohol use, meditation, journaling, etc. As of late I am easily "triggered" and am wondering why I am constantly in a tiff with someone. The biggest flags for me are my relationships and job stability. I used to be pretty impulsive; poor spending habits, promiscuous, fighting, heavy drinking... but I think SOME of that was early 20s shenanigans.
I think my dad has some sort of personality disorder and I've wondered if my mom does too (siblings also feel this way, so I'm not imagining it). So, it's possible to have inherited some sort of disorder, yeah? OR, have my parents' issues and my childhood trauma created some sort of weird anxiety/self perception thing within me? Both? Covid stress contributing to things?
If I do have BPD at least it will help explain some of my behavior but I also know there's a lot of stigma around it. My mom likes to weaponize people's mental health status as a way to delegitimize their experiences...
Bleh.
Thank you <3
