- May 14, 2019
- North Carolina
Hey guys i’m at work and my manager that i haven’t seen for a while is here and she told me that i look really skinny and acted really surprised. i’ve always been lean because an eating disorder has always been a part of my life but i’ve been doing pretty good until lately. my girlfriend and i broke up with me so my eating has been not as great as i wish it could be. very sad and trying but usually not succeeding with eating enough. i guess hearing my manager say that made me excited in a gross way. i don’t want to shrink back into how tiny i was but some sick part of me thrives on “compliments” like that. i think i’m relapsing and i don’t know what to do.i miss my girlfriend but i also miss how good i could take care of myself when i had the encouragement of a loving partner.