- Apr 23, 2012
So I relapsed last night and harmed myself. To be honest I needed someone to talk to and earlier in the day I tried speaking to a friend but didn't really get much back. I tried talking to a charity but didn't hear back from them and they don't operate 24/7. This charity does get busy and they do support me so I know they genuinely were busy. I felt vulnerable and reaching out for help to not get any left me with no other option. I don't feel like reaching out anymore. I just don't see the point. When I say reaching out I mean in the real world. The thoughts of self harming again have been on the back of my mind and my thoughts have been wandering to it on quite a few occasions during today. A part of me feels like crying but another part of me feels like self harming again. If it wasn't for the scars I get then I wouldn't be bothered but I hate the scars I already have.