I really can't take it anymore trigger warning suicide.

[Beautifuldarkfsntasy]

I'm just thinking about how nobody in this world even treats you good. Everyone is so intolerant. Like to be liked/loved there's many conditions. The one person I sort of trusted keeps making me feel like they don't even care about me. Especially with this election I'm seeing a lot of tribalism with people. Like I try to like people no matter what political views they have, but for me its not the same way. It's not only that though. It's basic beliefs and boundaries that I can't have. Then it's the same thing with religion, or what you believe, or who you are. And I can't get out of my situation for years. Then even if I leave it physically I can't have the mental tools to make sure I can believe what I want. I'm so unassertive. Also my best friend who I trust and I have talked only with a text here aand there over like a year. We rarely talk. I have no friends other than that. I know people don't really care about me. I think I'm just going to end it. I'm going to find a way because I feel so miserable. I was excited 9 months ago when I almost had a shot to leave this house and that failed and i'm so angry and sad about it. I'm miserable everyday, and i've been treated really bad my whole life. Even on the internet confiding in someone I've been called pathetic and a man child too. Everyone says don't die for other people, but time and time again other people show they don't care. So I just think my best bet is ending my life

 

[Purpleplum]

Don't base your worth on who cares about you. Do YOU care about you? You need to begin there.

 

[Beautifuldarkfsntasy]

Don't base your worth on who cares about you. Do YOU care about you? You need to begin there.

I don't. And it does matter if I do have support. Since I don't i'm miserable. so how doesn't that matter?

 

[Tawny]

One day at a time.
Tomorrow, I'm going to buy some milk and ginger nuts I think. Hair needs washing. Family coming over which will be testing.

Next year life could be nicer and you might be happy.

We have to wait until we die naturally. No matter what.

 

[Tawny]

2021

 

[Purpleplum]

I don't. And it does matter if I do have support. Since I don't i'm miserable. so how doesn't that matter?

You can't base your worth on others. We only have control over ourselves. Work with what you have control over. You're miserable not because you don't have support but because you don't care about yourself.

 

[Tawny]

Life

 

[Beautifuldarkfsntasy]

One day at a time.
Tomorrow, I'm going to buy some milk and ginger nuts I think. Hair needs washing. Family coming over which will be testing.

Next year life could be nicer and you might be happy.

We have to wait until we die naturally. No matter what.

Ive been waiting for years and it never got better

 

[Beautifuldarkfsntasy]

You can't base your worth on others. We only have control over ourselves. Work with what you have control over. You're miserable not because you don't have support but because you don't care about yourself.

I disagree. It's both. whatever though. I'm not gonna care about myself forever. I rather just die

 

[Tawny]

Hope

 

[Tawny]

Caroline Flack
Robin Williams
Amy Winehouse
Heath Ledger
So many. I wish they had kept going.

 

[Tawny]

I'm going to sleep
You all take care

 

[goodgollymiss]

Hugs. What about volunteering for palliative care

 

[Fairy Lucretia]

things can get better ,i promise x

 

[Beautifuldarkfsntasy]

Hugs. What about volunteering for palliative care

what's that