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So I have a problem.....
I had a mental illness problem that only lasted about a month... But now for the rest of my life I have to pay for it......
My roommate just found out about it and now she is kicking me out. I didn't do anything wrong. Someone told her I was insaine and now she is kicking me out. Seriously I have done nothing wrong... This is not fair.... Why are people so judgemental? She never heard my story... She doesn't know anything.. She just heard some rumor that I was crazy now she is kicking me out. This happens at jobs too. The second the employers find out they fire me or wont hire me.. for no reason at all other then they found out that once I had a mental problem. They can't even come up with real excuses to fire me or kick me out... They make up fake ones.
All my relationships are ruined because of this. My so called friends found out and told the rest of my so called friends and now it is over with them. People at work found out and now it is over with them too..... I know soooo many people that I feel like I have to run away where I don't know anyone. But I know sooo many people that I think this will follow me where ever I go and I will be running for the rest of my life. Being popular can be bad... very bad.... no privacy.. running from my past..... Can't imagine what would happen if I became famous or something???
It is not fair...... why do they judge me soo?????? Everything is fine until they find out.... and then they turn on me so fast like a sweet soft puppy to a furocious Beast with fangs biting into my soft skin.
People have this idea of what a crazy person is.. They have this preconcieved idea of what it is to be insaine. I was not a bad person even when I did loose my mind for a brief period of time. I was actually up there with the nicest, purest, sweetest most unbelievable good people in the world. I compared myself to GOD and Jesus. I was practically perfect. I wouldn't do anything, I mean anything wrong at all.. If I even thought it was wrong I wouldn't do it. I was and I mean it the best person on the face of the earth at that time. And people see this as a bad thing? NO.... how is this bad? IT was a gift and a curse at the same time... IT was a gift from GOD. But it was a curse because of how people view it. They don't know.. They have no idea what I went through or what was going on in my head. They how no idea of what a good person I am. All they know is that when they hear that I was crazy or insaine or anthing along these lines they flip on me and it is over. They call me names and make fun of me. They hold it against me. They use it against me.. Like nothing I say is of any real value or worth, credibility just because of this one incident that happened how ever long ago. And I am so afraid that I will be running from this for the rest of my life. I can never introduce a friend or boyfriend to my relatives. I almost want to join the witness protection plan and start over. Give me a new Social Socurity Number and let me start over. It is just not fair that people can look all this personal medical history information up about me. It is not right. This should be illegal. It is an invasion of my privacy. Why doesn't the world see how wrong this is!? This is so wrong! I can't take jobs where they do background checks..... This is so wrong..............
Now I am going to move...... but I know I know... I know sooooo many people that it is still going to follow me. I would have to totally leave the country and it would still follow me. I can't leave this earth.... or move to mars..... My only other option would be to sit in my house and never come out. Never talk to anyone..... Never work...... This is not fair to me.... Why do they judge me soo????????? They don't even know what happened. They never even heard the story. They don't even know me.. They can never know me now. Just me, my dog and god........What a lonely world this is.... what a lonely world.................
I just wish God would punish all the people who judged me and still judge. I wish God would make them feel the way they made me feel. I wish God would ruin thier lives the way they ruined mine. And show no mercy...no mercy... I wish someone would speak up and say! This is not right! Stop it now!!!!!!!!!
I had a mental illness problem that only lasted about a month... But now for the rest of my life I have to pay for it......
My roommate just found out about it and now she is kicking me out. I didn't do anything wrong. Someone told her I was insaine and now she is kicking me out. Seriously I have done nothing wrong... This is not fair.... Why are people so judgemental? She never heard my story... She doesn't know anything.. She just heard some rumor that I was crazy now she is kicking me out. This happens at jobs too. The second the employers find out they fire me or wont hire me.. for no reason at all other then they found out that once I had a mental problem. They can't even come up with real excuses to fire me or kick me out... They make up fake ones.
All my relationships are ruined because of this. My so called friends found out and told the rest of my so called friends and now it is over with them. People at work found out and now it is over with them too..... I know soooo many people that I feel like I have to run away where I don't know anyone. But I know sooo many people that I think this will follow me where ever I go and I will be running for the rest of my life. Being popular can be bad... very bad.... no privacy.. running from my past..... Can't imagine what would happen if I became famous or something???
It is not fair...... why do they judge me soo?????? Everything is fine until they find out.... and then they turn on me so fast like a sweet soft puppy to a furocious Beast with fangs biting into my soft skin.
People have this idea of what a crazy person is.. They have this preconcieved idea of what it is to be insaine. I was not a bad person even when I did loose my mind for a brief period of time. I was actually up there with the nicest, purest, sweetest most unbelievable good people in the world. I compared myself to GOD and Jesus. I was practically perfect. I wouldn't do anything, I mean anything wrong at all.. If I even thought it was wrong I wouldn't do it. I was and I mean it the best person on the face of the earth at that time. And people see this as a bad thing? NO.... how is this bad? IT was a gift and a curse at the same time... IT was a gift from GOD. But it was a curse because of how people view it. They don't know.. They have no idea what I went through or what was going on in my head. They how no idea of what a good person I am. All they know is that when they hear that I was crazy or insaine or anthing along these lines they flip on me and it is over. They call me names and make fun of me. They hold it against me. They use it against me.. Like nothing I say is of any real value or worth, credibility just because of this one incident that happened how ever long ago. And I am so afraid that I will be running from this for the rest of my life. I can never introduce a friend or boyfriend to my relatives. I almost want to join the witness protection plan and start over. Give me a new Social Socurity Number and let me start over. It is just not fair that people can look all this personal medical history information up about me. It is not right. This should be illegal. It is an invasion of my privacy. Why doesn't the world see how wrong this is!? This is so wrong! I can't take jobs where they do background checks..... This is so wrong..............
Now I am going to move...... but I know I know... I know sooooo many people that it is still going to follow me. I would have to totally leave the country and it would still follow me. I can't leave this earth.... or move to mars..... My only other option would be to sit in my house and never come out. Never talk to anyone..... Never work...... This is not fair to me.... Why do they judge me soo????????? They don't even know what happened. They never even heard the story. They don't even know me.. They can never know me now. Just me, my dog and god........What a lonely world this is.... what a lonely world.................
I just wish God would punish all the people who judged me and still judge. I wish God would make them feel the way they made me feel. I wish God would ruin thier lives the way they ruined mine. And show no mercy...no mercy... I wish someone would speak up and say! This is not right! Stop it now!!!!!!!!!
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