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harpsichoid
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- Jan 12, 2009
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My name is John, I'm 18.
I can't take people looking at me; I have to stand at the edge of the room so that I'm not surrounded by people, and sometimes I have to leave because I can't stand it anymore; I can't make eye contact; I can't stay with other people for long because I think they don't want me with them; I've never had a job or a proper relationship because I'll be rejected, and I know I'm too ugly and too stupid to be able to make them happy. My parents ask me to make phone calls or socialise with their friends or relatives, and I say no. They call me pathetic, but I can't do it because I know I'll have to run off and burst into tears.
I could continue for hours, but I doubt anyone wants to know, and that isn't the reason I'm here.
I've only recently found out what avoidant personality disorder is, and it seems to fit me perfectly. I don't know how to get help though- I really can't find any help with getting my problems fixed, and I don't know who to speak to or where to go. Do I talk to my doctor? Or do I have to make an appointment with a counseller, or a psychiatrist, or what?
I would really appreciate some help. I need this diagnosis- I'll finally be able to sit down with my parents and tell them why I'm such a failure in everything.
I can't take people looking at me; I have to stand at the edge of the room so that I'm not surrounded by people, and sometimes I have to leave because I can't stand it anymore; I can't make eye contact; I can't stay with other people for long because I think they don't want me with them; I've never had a job or a proper relationship because I'll be rejected, and I know I'm too ugly and too stupid to be able to make them happy. My parents ask me to make phone calls or socialise with their friends or relatives, and I say no. They call me pathetic, but I can't do it because I know I'll have to run off and burst into tears.
I could continue for hours, but I doubt anyone wants to know, and that isn't the reason I'm here.
I've only recently found out what avoidant personality disorder is, and it seems to fit me perfectly. I don't know how to get help though- I really can't find any help with getting my problems fixed, and I don't know who to speak to or where to go. Do I talk to my doctor? Or do I have to make an appointment with a counseller, or a psychiatrist, or what?
I would really appreciate some help. I need this diagnosis- I'll finally be able to sit down with my parents and tell them why I'm such a failure in everything.
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