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I need help..



New member
Feb 4, 2015
I have been self harming for about 8 years now and it is getting harder and harder.
I have a unspecified mood disorder along with intense anxiety and panic, depression, OCD-PTSD, Fibro, etc.

I am not sure what to do anymore.
I have already been hospitalized twice.

I blank out, I don't feel real most of the time. I am flying for days then out of nowhere I am deeper than low, like where I began. I am so exhausted. I don't want to live this way anymore, it has gotten so bad.

Self harming is my only way of coping, always hasbeen. I have tried everything to stop, trust me.
I am on the verge of another hospitalization.
These suicidal thoughts/ self harm thoughts seem to never leave my mind.
The ideation drives me to the point where I really think I might take my life.

I'm scared..
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Well-known member
Aug 17, 2012
The West Country
Welcome to the forum.

I'm sorry that things are bad. It sounds like you've been struggling for a very long time.

When you say you're at risk of going to hospital, does that mean someone from the mental health team is aware that you are feeling low?