- Feb 16, 2015
Hi - this is my first post here so I hope its ok. Im struggling with my life desperately. Im 21 years old and have had problem after problem. My mother is a very nasty, selfish woman who treats me vile. She puts me down and loves to make me feel less of a person than herself, growing up my life was just awful. My dad had a drug abuse problem, my mum had an alcoholic problem. My life growing up was a constant struggle, we had no money for food or hot water, the police were forever raiding our home for drugs, my friends growing up laughed at me for having the druggie mum and dad. Infact come to think of it, i had no proper friends because my dad one day in his rage for drugs screamed at them all in the street, and that was the end of those friendships. My mum and dad then divorced, that was hard. I stayed with my mum and she continued to put me down, she never showed me love or affection, nothing. My dad died only 4 months ago of a multiple drug intoxication and im absolutley devestated. My mum laughed in my face about him dying, she came and ruined my daughters 2nd birthday party last week (my daughter is purely the only reason im still here) and now we are not talking.. Infact I have pretty much lost my mother along with my father. I have no proper friends, i was bullied throughout school and high school and now struggle to stay friends with people and the friends i do have, we dont talk much and I cant tell them stuff. I have a partner but he doesn't understand, he never wants to be around me, won't spend time with me and his priorities seem a bit messed up. Overall i feel lonely, lost, devestated and just feel like I want out of life. I havent been diagnosed with depression but i have been diagnosed with anxiety disorders and OCD. Any support would be so greatfully recieved, thank you.