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sunshinegirl2001
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I need help.
I’m so disappointed in myself. I don’t even know how to get out of this rut.
My GPA dropped from a 3.8 to a 3.5 now in one semester. I received a C in a class that I had an A+ in because I couldn’t recover from a depressive episode I had for almost two months. A B+ in a class because my attendance was shit and I didn’t make the syllabi requirement for receiving an A.
Yet, I don’t want to sign up for disability services at school. All of this could have been prevented if I did. I would have gotten chances for extensions and I excused absences.
Yet, I don’t feel sick. I stopped taking my meds because i felt better and also because I was lazy and didn’t want to refill them because, well, I felt better. But then the “better” was overspending to where my account is currently overdrawn by $50, I spent almost $2000 in two months with no job, I wasted my money on fucking clothes and shit that I don’t even wear. I’m so freaking hungry all of the time. I’m hyper sexual and can’t stop talking when provoked. I mix up audio to where they’re saying what I’m thinking in my head on the show. I was watching spongebob thinking about something and he started talking about it on the screen. Is that normal? I got someone else on tv and their outfit wrong (white suit and black shirt instead of black suit and white shirt) and when I was corrected I was denying it because I saw him wear a white suit and not a black one. I’m on chat rooms talking to men and I’m so overconfident on my clothing style, life, etc. I think?? Now, I think that it’s okay for me to crush on guys older than me even and these symptoms ALWAYS are bundled up together. I wake up late and stay up late.
Just last week, I was getting up early and going to sleep well, not eating enough (somewhat), feeling levelheaded about myself and now I feel like I am the shit by judging people and their lives. I don’t know. I’m so upset with my school performance but I don’t think that I’m sick. I think that this is me and I need help. I’m aware and not aware because I don’t need meds. My life isn’t affected that bad I guess. Idk. I’m so fucking dumb. My first college C because I was depressed and didn’t seek help. I hate myself.
I want to give up. i want ti drop out of school for my gpa because i have to apply to transfer to a nursing program and now my gpa is fucking ruined. i dont want accomodations. i want to be normal or whatever. lamictal, it stopped the depression but then idk bc it was like hypomania.
i hate this sh!t bc i dont know who i am.
I’m so disappointed in myself. I don’t even know how to get out of this rut.
My GPA dropped from a 3.8 to a 3.5 now in one semester. I received a C in a class that I had an A+ in because I couldn’t recover from a depressive episode I had for almost two months. A B+ in a class because my attendance was shit and I didn’t make the syllabi requirement for receiving an A.
Yet, I don’t want to sign up for disability services at school. All of this could have been prevented if I did. I would have gotten chances for extensions and I excused absences.
Yet, I don’t feel sick. I stopped taking my meds because i felt better and also because I was lazy and didn’t want to refill them because, well, I felt better. But then the “better” was overspending to where my account is currently overdrawn by $50, I spent almost $2000 in two months with no job, I wasted my money on fucking clothes and shit that I don’t even wear. I’m so freaking hungry all of the time. I’m hyper sexual and can’t stop talking when provoked. I mix up audio to where they’re saying what I’m thinking in my head on the show. I was watching spongebob thinking about something and he started talking about it on the screen. Is that normal? I got someone else on tv and their outfit wrong (white suit and black shirt instead of black suit and white shirt) and when I was corrected I was denying it because I saw him wear a white suit and not a black one. I’m on chat rooms talking to men and I’m so overconfident on my clothing style, life, etc. I think?? Now, I think that it’s okay for me to crush on guys older than me even and these symptoms ALWAYS are bundled up together. I wake up late and stay up late.
Just last week, I was getting up early and going to sleep well, not eating enough (somewhat), feeling levelheaded about myself and now I feel like I am the shit by judging people and their lives. I don’t know. I’m so upset with my school performance but I don’t think that I’m sick. I think that this is me and I need help. I’m aware and not aware because I don’t need meds. My life isn’t affected that bad I guess. Idk. I’m so fucking dumb. My first college C because I was depressed and didn’t seek help. I hate myself.
I want to give up. i want ti drop out of school for my gpa because i have to apply to transfer to a nursing program and now my gpa is fucking ruined. i dont want accomodations. i want to be normal or whatever. lamictal, it stopped the depression but then idk bc it was like hypomania.
i hate this sh!t bc i dont know who i am.
