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Bezerker

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Hi. Few day ago the doctor explained to me that my mother is dying. I started feeling very bad psychologically and also physically. It took some time to comprehend what is happening, but as soon as I completely understood that she is dying, my brain switched off. Now my brain is completely empty, i don't care anymore about anything, because nothing makes sense anymore. I have lost that part of conscience in the brain that makes you function. I don't feel my body like I used to do, I feel emptiness in my brain and my body. Also my hands and legs started feeling very weak. I feel like my brain is dissociating from my body and is losing contact with my body. I feel like soul is real and wants to escape from my body and just disappear forever because what I feel is so horrible. It's not sadness. It's the comprehension of the fact that she is dying mindlessly. I have never thought seriously about death. My brain used to believe that she will always be a part of my life. As I said, my state doesn't only affect my brain, but also my body. I am really scared because I can't function. Is this psychosis, depression, both, or something else? Any help would be appreciated.
 
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I'm so sorry that your mother is dying and for the emotional toll that it is taking on you. There is a forum called "Dissociation, Depersonalisation and Derealisation" that may be appropriate for you to post to, but since you most likely will experience depression as well, the Depression forum is also appropriate for you to post to.

I didn't realize it, but emotional numbess is a coping mechanism. The following article explains it in detail:

Emotional Numbess Coping Mechanism

Here is one paragraph from the article:

"Emotional numbness can happen as a result of physical or emotional pain. In an attempt to protect yourself from being hurt again, it’s not uncommon to disconnect, detach, or numb out feelings related to the situation."
 
Bezerker

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No. I don't have emotional numbness. I'll try to explain again. My brain is unable to function as supposed to because it has lost the belief in something that was the fundament of my life. My mother. I can't react to normal situations anymore, because I feel like a ghost surrounded by things and people. I'm afraid the shock is too much for my brain to keep me take care of myself.
 
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Is your Mum in hospital and do the two of you live together?
 
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Incredibly difficult situation @Bezerker

I can't possibly imagine being in your situation. Sending you a virtual hug as I don't know what else to say
 
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I will also send you a virtual hug 🫂 so sad you are on this situation
 
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Hi. Few day ago the doctor explained to me that my mother is dying. I started feeling very bad psychologically and also physically. It took some time to comprehend what is happening, but as soon as I completely understood that she is dying, my brain switched off. Now my brain is completely empty, i don't care anymore about anything, because nothing makes sense anymore. I have lost that part of conscience in the brain that makes you function. I don't feel my body like I used to do, I feel emptiness in my brain and my body. Also my hands and legs started feeling very weak. I feel like my brain is dissociating from my body and is losing contact with my body. I feel like soul is real and wants to escape from my body and just disappear forever because what I feel is so horrible. It's not sadness. It's the comprehension of the fact that she is dying mindlessly. I have never thought seriously about death. My brain used to believe that she will always be a part of my life. As I said, my state doesn't only affect my brain, but also my body. I am really scared because I can't function. Is this psychosis, depression, both, or something else? Any help would be appreciated.


I am sorry to hear about your mother! You have to contact your GP (doctor) and explain the situation. May be you are in shock! The doctor will refer you to a specialist if you need so. In this situation (if you have the money to do so), I would have contacted a private psychologist or psychiatrist to avoid the waiting line, if I were in your shoes. To go into private therapy, means that the waiting lists are low. For those you can search for online therapy (some places), but please don't forget to contact your primary doctor first in case your symtoms need treatment right away.

Send my hopes for you ... :hug1:
 
Bezerker

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I am sorry to hear about your mother! You have to contact your GP (doctor) and explain the situation. May be you are in shock! The doctor will refer you to a specialist if you need so. In this situation (if you have the money to do so), I would have contacted a private psychologist or psychiatrist to avoid the waiting line, if I were in your shoes. To go into private therapy, means that the waiting lists are low. For those you can search for online therapy (some places), but please don't forget to contact your primary doctor first in case your symtoms need treatment right away.

Send my hopes for you ... :hug1:

Thanks. I already have a psychiatrist who is following me. I am not seeing a psychiatrist now because of the coronavirus. This is why I posted on this forum. I'm trying to find somebody here who knows how severe is my condition. I will see my psychiatrist sooner or later.
 
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