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I_Was_Punished
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This has been going on for a while now. I don't like leaving the house, i get very nervous and i feel physically sick so i have some alcohol first to relax me. Then once i've had enough to drink to feel relaxed i leave the house. But i rarely go out before having a drink and i only really go out when i have to for shop or to get cash from the cashpoint or if i really feel i have to get out to the woods or the park. Occasionally i will go out sober but i never relax, i always feel edgy and nervous. I don't know what the answer is. i know drinking a lot of alcohol has health consequences but sometimes i don't care, we all have to die some day and i feel like i don't even see the point in living a long time if i am going to spend my whole life feeling anxious and depressed all the time. i definitely have avoidant personality disorder and agoraphobia, they aren't diagnosed but i know i have them, this has been going on a long time. This last year has made it worse