- Jun 18, 2021
- The Capital of Europe
This is not related to the topic but I add that I have a horrible day one of the worst and now I'm drunk. I take everything as provocations. and I don't even know how I still manage to write but apparently I am.
You are allowed to have horrible days. It doesn’t make you a horrible person. Please, be kind to yourself!
I can relate with the fact you see everything as a provocation and your anger. You are angry for a good reason. Please, don’t try to be angry on your anger. Don’t judge it as something bad. Validate it. Talk to it. Welcome your anger and ask it how it is doing? ‘How are you, anger?’ It sounds perhaps ridiculous in the beginning. I found that too. It seems to be childish, but it will help when you do this often. Give your anger the space it deserves. Good luck!
I understand you want to drink. I’ve done that too but it is a short way to feel a bit better or to paralyse yourself. It is a nice way to escape the pain. But the daemons aren’t away. They are back after a couple of hours. Try to face your daemons instead of escaping them by drinking. Try to talk to them. Be nice to them and yourself. They are there and will stay, even if you push them away with alcohol, they will return and you can’t stay drunk in life.
Rome wasn’t built in one year. Every child falls 1000 times before it can walk. Every small step is a step forward and you will come closer to more happiness. Believe me, I know where I have been, it is possible. You won’t believe me now. When you’re feeling deep, you don’t believe there’s a way out, therefore you really need to start trusting a couple of persons who have good advice. I think your psychiatrist has got a good influence on you. Try to trust him! Okay?
I hope you don’t have a too heavy hangover