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I made the voices go away

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Jase1111

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If i look back at it now it almost feels like they were never there in the first place.
I lived with them for 1 and a half years. Worst experience I've ever had in my life.
Constant horrible insults thrown my way on a daily, I couldn't even read a book without "them" copying and laughing about what I was reading.

Anyway, Confidence was extremely low, Anxiety was extremely high...so I had to do something about

Long story short I started studying the mind to see what has been affecting it to conjure up these delusions in my head,
and what was affecting my subconcious mind on a daily basis.

After I found and eliminated these things from my life - I actually started to enjoy it.
Especially being able to string a decent conversation together with people, Most people stopped 'staring at me'
My stomach didn't get knots when speaking to people.
Life is good guys...Life is good.

If you have any questions i'll talk to anyone who wants to.
 
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GTG

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What did you do specifically?
 
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Jase1111

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Brother I started to look into the music I was listening to, the environment I surrounded myself with when I became schizophrenic(the origin) I had to immediateley change, the amount of exercise I was getting, and general exposure to things on social media that was affecting my psyche... this is what I had to start learning about - Theory is all well and good but the biggest problems I faced came 2-3 months after I was diagnosed because of all the abuse I was getting on a daily my confidence to speak and be around people became a nightmare..So i had to train my mind to accept my value as a person and who I am. Also cutting off any negative relationships with friends, so as a result I was alone for a while. A big thing that I assume also helped me was my day in and day out interaction at my local college. It was living hell but I think it was necessary. If you want to know any more specifics I'll be here
 
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What an inspiration you are @Jase1111!

I know from experience it takes guts, determination, self-awareness and a whole lotta' forgiveness to find the road to recovery, so well done my friend. 👏

Just wondering why you use 1111 on the tail of your username. I used to see it all the time and tried to find its meaning - which I did.

If you're interested we could chat?
 
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Jase1111

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What an inspiration you are @Jase1111!

I know from experience it takes guts, determination, self-awareness and a whole lotta' forgiveness to find the road to recovery, so well done my friend. 👏

Just wondering why you use 1111 on the tail of your username. I used to see it all the time and tried to find its meaning - which I did.

If you're interested we could chat?
It seems to be that My whole numerology and Life is surrounded by 1s, and 11: 11 is a special number to me, it feels as if I'm on the right path when I see it :))

I'd love to, I am new to this so don't know how to chat on this website.
 
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When I say chat, I mean posting to each other, that's all.

11:11 refers to the date - 11am, 11 November 1918; celebrating signing the Treaty of Versailles; Armistice Day. Germany formally surrenders to the allies.

Points to consider re this number and its relevance...

  • This was the first time returned soldiers (veterans) were diagnosed by psychiatrists with 'the soldier's malady', now called Complex PTSD. Prior to this, although many leaders knew of the effects going back a thousand years, no-one had formally 'named' it until WWI.
  • Once the treaty was signed, representatives from Britain, Germany and France locked themselves away in a hotel to negotiate post war conditions, rebuilding war torn cities and most importantly, to decide how much compensation to award the families of fallen soldiers.
11:11 will appear when our psyche recognizes specific stress triggers which relate to previous long term abuse and/or trauma, and how we self blame, can't forgive, continue avoiding issues and live by beliefs created by damaged perceptions.

For me it was frantically watching out for my siblings and Nan as I knew what my parents were capable of. I'd throw myself in harms way to save them but of course this never worked. This corresponds with soldiers watching their mates fall and not feeling they'd done enough. Guilt from 'surviving' was a biggie.

This pattern has invaded every situation I've encountered such as relationships, work, being an overprotective mother and standing up for vulnerable people even though I put myself at risk.

The 2nd point - compensating families of the fallen, refers to our 'worth' and 'value' to our loved ones, community and those we see as authorities. This one challenged me to overcome as there were many traumatic experiences and toxic beliefs to consider and heal from.

In essence, 11:11 represents healing a wounded mind and war torn past.

Does any of this resonate with you?
 
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Jase1111

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When I say chat, I mean posting to each other, that's all.

11:11 refers to the date - 11am, 11 November 1918; celebrating signing the Treaty of Versailles; Armistice Day. Germany formally surrenders to the allies.

Points to consider re this number and its relevance...

  • This was the first time returned soldiers (veterans) were diagnosed by psychiatrists with 'the soldier's malady', now called Complex PTSD. Prior to this, although many leaders knew of the effects going back a thousand years, no-one had formally 'named' it until WWI.
  • Once the treaty was signed, representatives from Britain, Germany and France locked themselves away in a hotel to negotiate post war conditions, rebuilding war torn cities and most importantly, to decide how much compensation to award the families of fallen soldiers.
11:11 will appear when our psyche recognizes specific stress triggers which relate to previous long term abuse and/or trauma, and how we self blame, can't forgive, continue avoiding issues and live by beliefs created by damaged perceptions.

For me it was frantically watching out for my siblings and Nan as I knew what my parents were capable of. I'd throw myself in harms way to save them but of course this never worked. This corresponds with soldiers watching their mates fall and not feeling they'd done enough. Guilt from 'surviving' was a biggie.

This pattern has invaded every situation I've encountered such as relationships, work, being an overprotective mother and standing up for vulnerable people even though I put myself at risk.

The 2nd point - compensating families of the fallen, refers to our 'worth' and 'value' to our loved ones, community and those we see as authorities. This one challenged me to overcome as there were many traumatic experiences and toxic beliefs to consider and heal from.

In essence, 11:11 represents healing a wounded mind and war torn past.

Does any of this resonate with you?
To be honest none of that resonates with me, I prefer the spiritual values of 11:11. I also do not like the concept of constantly reminding myself that i had trauma/abuse or that my mind needs healing...I feel believing your mind is healed and not treating yourself like you are disabled was one of the first steps I had to take in order to recover. The constant reminders that you have/had this disease will always give you an excuse when you don't push yourself and start regressing <3
 
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nohope4u

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LizBo I managed it all and get thru it, with patience and determination and a lot of forgiveness. You will success to it too. Feel free to message me for advices <3
 
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Congratulations Jase. What a true blessing. I hope to report the same. The medication is working.
 
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