If anyone has any help they can give I'd really appreciate it and hope you get blessed. I'm literally on my last string. My life has been hanging on a thread and this has been a really crappy year. I'm so close to killing myself. The only things stopping me are how my family will take it but that's starting to slip between the cracks. I just don't want to do it anymore, for anybody. This sounds absolutely horrible but I'm too miserable to stay alive to keep my family happy. I love them but I feel like I'm hurting myself more by staying alive then them if by killing myself. There's so much wrong with my life I can't even begin to explain. My life is a never-ending whirl of torment. I just don't think its worth it anymore.