I just wanna feel human...

[Vivian]

Hey im vivian I really dont know why im even here or if this is going to help. But im felling this shit for so long idk what to do, i feel like i dont even have strength to do normal shits, like eat, or hang out with people
Go out of bed you know? I dont even feel human anymore, i hurt everyone a round me, and obviously they give up on me, and a get it, because i wanna have friends but i hate to socialize, I want to be alone but not lonely, im scared and tired at the same time, it would be so much easier to just kill my self.

 

[HiImAnn]

I hope you reach out to someone who can help. 800-273-8255 is the suicide hotline. Please call 911 if it gets worse. You seem like a solid person Vivian and you deserve to be remembered. I know it's hard but you are worth so much more than suicide. And I promise you, killing yourself will be the harder route to take, for it is only the beginning of a horrible journey. I pray you find peace and the strength to realize just how amazing and loved you are!

 

[NWiddi]

I'm sorry you're feeling so low, I've found a website that lists suicide prevention services in Portugal.

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www.suicide.org

I hope you can use the forums for support but also reach out for any help you can find, be it one of the services listed or from a doctor.

For anyone else who may be reading this.

If you’re thinking about suicide and are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number (i.e. in the UK call 999, in the USA or Canada call 911, in Australia call 000 and in New Zealand call 111) or call the international emergency number of 112.

If you have been affected by the contents of this thread and would like to speak to someone about your feelings you can call one of the following helplines:

In the UK and Ireland, the Samaritans can be contacted on 116 123.
In the US, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255.
In Canada, the Suicide Prevention Service on 1.833.456.4566.
In Australia, the crisis support service Lifeline is on 13 11 14.
In New Zealand, the Need to Talk service is on 1737 or 080017371737.
Other international helplines can be found at www.befrienders.org.

 

[treasurebox]

What you are in is not permanent. There will be better days for you. Create happy moments because happiness is a choice. And you can do it.

Music helps me. Music is therapeutic. Listen to good, uplifting and encouraging music on youtube.

Also, do what you love doing or what you are good at. It will do good to you and make you happy.

 

[Vivian]

Thanks I appreciate that<3