- Jan 14, 2020
hi I am new here and I just need to talk to someone. I have been depressed for many years and its getting worse. my dad died in 2016 and my family has just got more dysfunctional and they have been my whole life. they have just gotten colder and more rude and extremely mean. my mother has always been mean to me since I was 12 years old but she is incredibly hateful now. she was being crazy today and made an rude comment towards me out of nowhere and then I stood up for myself and she continued to tell me how much of a horrible person I am and it ended with her attacking me. my phone is not working right now or I would have called the police. she has always been violent towards me and threw a chair at me 6 years ago. I am so depressed and just wish I wasn't alive. she blames me for everything that she does and always acts like I am the bad guy when she continues to bully me and emotionally and mentally and verbally and now physically abuses me. she is insane and I just cant take it anymore. I just want to die. I feel so alone. if anyone could please talk to me with no judgment that would be great. I am so sad and feel so useless and like I have no one. thank you.