• Hi. It’s great to see you. Welcome!

    Our forum members are people, maybe like yourself, who experience mental health difficulties or who have had them at some point in their life. Amongst our membership there is a wealth of expertise that has been developed through having to deal with mental health issues.

    We are an actively moderated forum with a team of experienced moderators. We also have a specialist safety team that works extra hard to keep the forum safe for visitors and members.

    Register now to access many more features and forums!

I just don't want to deal with life anymore

valleygirl

valleygirl

Well-known member
Joined
Apr 5, 2015
Messages
1,927
Location
Valley of dry bones
None of it. Work, bills, car repairs, trying and failing to lose this God awful weight I've put on since I started taking Seroquel. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired and fat, and trying not to be sick and tired and fat.
 
L

Little-Loss-Soul2

Well-known member
Joined
Sep 1, 2018
Messages
145
Location
Canada
None of it. Work, bills, car repairs, trying and failing to lose this God awful weight I've put on since I started taking Seroquel. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired and fat, and trying not to be sick and tired and fat.
Have u been reading my mind? For the Last while this is how I been feeling. Loosing control of self. Loss of self worth. Felt ugly and tired of trying. Meds don't seem to help. I'm not writing here to vent on how I been suffering however. I'm writing this, because I can relate. I just started to recover yesterday. I realized that I apprently will not kill my self. So I have to do something. It was enough motivation to start cleaning up my act. It continued on for today. I guess my question to you is what will it take for u to get better? If for now just keep yourself safe. Fight each day and don't question why u fight. Because I know the place you are is not who u are. Don't give up on self yet. You can and will keep going. I hope maybe something I say will help. If not at the very most you know that I'm here for u. +Hugs+
 
Last edited:
valleygirl

valleygirl

Well-known member
Joined
Apr 5, 2015
Messages
1,927
Location
Valley of dry bones
I feel like I am barely keeping things together. This depression is making me very forgetful at work, and my co-worker is always reminding me to do things like record diaper changes and how much each child ate for lunch and take the emergency bag outside when we take the children outside to play. I feel like I am not functioning well at all. At home I'm not keeping things together at all. My apartment's a disaster and I'm not cooking meals - I get takeout instead. I am hoping by Saturday I will have enough energy to do a power clean of my apartment.
 
G

goodgollymiss

Well-known member
Joined
Apr 6, 2017
Messages
407
Congrats on having a meaningful job. Children are our future! I was having trouble with concentration so I started to take vitamins and drinking vegetable juice. I still have problems with attention though. Walking around the block used to help too but now I hurt my hip. Sometimes the ymca will have zumba class. They like not to be discrimatory and hire a lot of overweight teachers. But I was so overweight at zumba that I stepped instead of jumped. Maybe going to the library for books, movies or music could interest you. My library has a 3d printer.
 
W

Wake Me Up

Member
Joined
Apr 23, 2018
Messages
13
Sorry to read that you're feeling so down :low: omg I HATED seroquel! I would never recommend that drug to anyone! I was depressed, suicidal and gained a lot of weight from it.
Have you talked to your psychiatrist (or your doctor) about how you're feeling and how you're doing? Have you talked to whoever prescribes it to you, to change the medication?
I know changing medication is a pain in the butt, and mentally exhausting.
You could possibly stay in a safe mental hospital while it's changing over if that's a concern. Or have someone close to you to stay with you while you're switching meds.
 
letmein

letmein

Well-known member
Joined
Oct 10, 2016
Messages
860
None of it. Work, bills, car repairs, trying and failing to lose this God awful weight I've put on since I started taking Seroquel. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired and fat, and trying not to be sick and tired and fat.
so relate to what you are saying...... I'd happily kill myself today if i had the balls to do it.
 
M

mylifeis0ver

New member
Joined
Sep 16, 2018
Messages
4
Like the others, I can relate a lot to how you are feeling. I’m sorry that you are feeling this way, because I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone.

Do you think perhaps trying a different medicine might help? Have you tried speaking with the physician you currently see? As someone who has tried different medications and not had the greatest success with any of them, I know this question can be extremely annoying, especially because medicine isn’t the entire answer.

If there is anyone you can call upon (I don’t have anyone right now so believe me, if you don’t then I know all about that) you would probably benefit from going out and doing something you enjoy with a friend.

I hope something happens to make you feel better soon. Keep going one day at a time even though it’s hard.

Xx
 
G

goodgollymiss

Well-known member
Joined
Apr 6, 2017
Messages
407
Thanks for the replies everyone!
 
valleygirl

valleygirl

Well-known member
Joined
Apr 5, 2015
Messages
1,927
Location
Valley of dry bones
I have tried other medications, but Seroquel is the only one that works to keep the hypomania away. My psychiatrist does know about my depression. I talked to him about it last time I saw him, and he increased my dose of trazadone, because I was having trouble sleeping too, but it hasn't really helped my sleep or depression. I really wish I could just take a sick day, but we are short staffed right now, and my boss is ill and can't work at the moment either. I can't afford to take a sick leave.

Sorry to read that you're feeling so down :low: omg I HATED seroquel! I would never recommend that drug to anyone! I was depressed, suicidal and gained a lot of weight from it.
Have you talked to your psychiatrist (or your doctor) about how you're feeling and how you're doing? Have you talked to whoever prescribes it to you, to change the medication?
I know changing medication is a pain in the butt, and mentally exhausting.
You could possibly stay in a safe mental hospital while it's changing over if that's a concern. Or have someone close to you to stay with you while you're switching meds.
 
valleygirl

valleygirl

Well-known member
Joined
Apr 5, 2015
Messages
1,927
Location
Valley of dry bones
I am still feeling absolute crap. I see my psychiatrist at 7 am before work on Wednesday, and I have no idea what he is going to say. I kind of hope he might have me try a different antidepressant. But that seems to be the cycle I've been in for a long time - I start an antidepressant and it works for a few years, and then I have to come off it and try something new, and if it works, it's only for a couple of years. I am so completely exhausted, mentally and physically.

I keep daydreaming about winning the lottery and all the things I would do with it. Sometimes I daydream about not working anymore, and all the hobbies I would have more time to do. Other times I daydream about opening my own daycare centre - the way I would set it up, the number of staff I would hire so we could do best practice rather than simply meet minimum standards, how much I would pay my staff and the perks I would have for them to minimize burnout. In reality, I will never be able to do that.
 
valleygirl

valleygirl

Well-known member
Joined
Apr 5, 2015
Messages
1,927
Location
Valley of dry bones
I'm going to try listening to audio books while cleaning and organizing my apartment. Maybe I won't feel so bored and give up so quickly. Today feels like a complete waste. I was looking after some foster children last night and I forgot to take my meds on time, so it was 2:00 am before I fell asleep, and I didn't get up until after 12 noon today.
 
valleygirl

valleygirl

Well-known member
Joined
Apr 5, 2015
Messages
1,927
Location
Valley of dry bones
All I managed was one load if dishes in the dishwasher. I went on crisis chat, and there are 2 people in line ahead of me, which means there is no point, because I need to go to bed earlier than I did last night. I don't know how I am going to make it through work tomorrow, let alone come home and do some organizing. It's been a long time since I felt this low.
 
tiltawhirl

tiltawhirl

Well-known member
Joined
Oct 30, 2010
Messages
5,044
Location
Bristol, TN/VA, USA (near mountains and 6 hours fr
That gets a clutter pile off the countertop!

That gets kept up mostly regularly here..dishes. and trash cans.

But the rest of the place can't be organized until a lot of clutter is dealt with.
I am trying to talk myself into doing something housekeeping today.
 
Top