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I just can't anymore!!

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Nancourt

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I hate to sound cliched but I really don't see the point to life anymore. People my age just aren't like me. They're just not caring they don't think the way i do. i am different. I don't like tinder, instagram, and facebook. They make me feel more alone. I havent made any meaningful connections no matter how much i tried. I have one true friend and that is it. I had a short relationship with a girl but she left just as quickly as she came. now i'm hopeless, hapless, and helpless. I just wanted one person to see the value in me, but no one does. not even my own family likes me. everyone avoids me. i never thought i was a reject or loser before her. But now that's all i feel now. i feel like im less than everyone else like im missing something. and now i'm too tired to keep trying. poeple these past 2 months have been rejecting me left right and centre.
So im done now. i dont want any of this anymore. enough suffering., \Theres only so much rejection i can take. and things could have been different but that gone now.
 
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Hi Nancourt

I am so sorry you feel this way, but believe me there is all ways light at the end of the tunnel
What meds are you on? it is surprising what meds can do to lighten your mood.
also we are all needed on this planet, so go easy on yourself.
 
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Nancourt

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I'm currently on nicotine and ethanol. :p sorry my humour is bad. I'm still waiting for my appointment with the psychiatrist to start some sort of medication, but for now I've been looking for whatever will make me feel happy unfortunately everything is temporary. I tried the healthy stuff first which included running walking trying to study. And when that wasn't working I turned to alcohol. Because that seems to be what's getting me through these long empty meaningless lonely days. And today I started smoking . I know this sounds bad but I'm not at my breaking point, anymore. I've broken. I've been shattered. Now I'm nothing but dust. I'm slot weaker than I thought I was a few months ago.
 
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wolram

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The first thing to do is get of the booze it only complicates things and is a short time solution
Have you thought about joining a club you can meet nice people at some of them,it will be better when you get some meds believe me.
 
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Nancourt

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And just like that my world came crumbling down. I just received an email from my university tutor that I'm in trouble because the report i handed in is no good. I knew i would find a way to ruin my life. and i did. I should have never gone to this dinner in christmas time. then i wouldnt have met the girl that destroyed any happiness i had left. i hate myself and my life. i hate that i was weak.
 
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Sincerly

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Nancourt,

Me too man, I don’t seem to have anything in common with people my age. I’ve always felt like an outsider. The world as a whole is so pointless. Peoples desires are so shallow and it’s hard to feel grounded when you can’t find a purpose in your life. Life sucks and then you die. I tried some meds, I just felt even more numb. It took the last bit of passion I had out of me. I wouldn’t do it again, so now I feel shitty for months on end trying for just one good day.
 
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