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mintdreamz
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Hi. I wanted to come out about what goes on in my daily life as a diagnosed Bipolar Type 1 person.
I hear "thoughts" that are not my own, saying I'm God's Son. It makes life a little complicated as I grew up being a girl. I went through a phase where I thought I was Transgender FTM, but staying on meds for the first time, I don't feel I am anymore. When it comes to just dress or pants, I am pants. Meaning, if I got to choose I would be male.
So the voice tells me things like she was Justin Bieber, and Justin Bieber is a lighter version of "what we do".
When I go out in public, the "voice" is stronger. It "holds my hand" by clenching a tight fist, ring finger against the center of my palm. I've told my psychiatrist that I was "hearing voices", but I think I was told that hearing voices can also be a Bipolar trait. It's difficult to tell people (on the internet), that I'm like a two spirit.. that I Believe i'm God's Son. Justin Bieber has a tattoo that says "Son of God". So when I go through life now, I think "God is inside the body" of who i'm talking to.. for example, I got labwork done this morning for my 6th month and looking in the lady that did my arm, I assume it's "the person I talk to in my head". It does get complicated when there are more than one person around like how. "The voice has gotten me into issues before" like being readmitted into the psych hospital because I was saying something delusional, after it told me to stop taking my meds (just one time though.. the rest I don't remember a voice telling me to stop taking them, shoving them in a water bottle shaking it up and flushing it.)
I didn't always live hearing the voice. I was diagnosed as Bipolar in 2012 after an issue at my job. The voice wasn't there back then, but I experienced things when I was doing pot. The voice asked me to marry one fourth of july and I said yes "all in my head". Recently I took myself off the dating apps I was on. I didn't have a job or car and how could I tell someone that I believe i'm "married to God".
Before my standing fan broke, I was hearing a voice out the fan.
I hear "thoughts" that are not my own, saying I'm God's Son. It makes life a little complicated as I grew up being a girl. I went through a phase where I thought I was Transgender FTM, but staying on meds for the first time, I don't feel I am anymore. When it comes to just dress or pants, I am pants. Meaning, if I got to choose I would be male.
So the voice tells me things like she was Justin Bieber, and Justin Bieber is a lighter version of "what we do".
When I go out in public, the "voice" is stronger. It "holds my hand" by clenching a tight fist, ring finger against the center of my palm. I've told my psychiatrist that I was "hearing voices", but I think I was told that hearing voices can also be a Bipolar trait. It's difficult to tell people (on the internet), that I'm like a two spirit.. that I Believe i'm God's Son. Justin Bieber has a tattoo that says "Son of God". So when I go through life now, I think "God is inside the body" of who i'm talking to.. for example, I got labwork done this morning for my 6th month and looking in the lady that did my arm, I assume it's "the person I talk to in my head". It does get complicated when there are more than one person around like how. "The voice has gotten me into issues before" like being readmitted into the psych hospital because I was saying something delusional, after it told me to stop taking my meds (just one time though.. the rest I don't remember a voice telling me to stop taking them, shoving them in a water bottle shaking it up and flushing it.)
I didn't always live hearing the voice. I was diagnosed as Bipolar in 2012 after an issue at my job. The voice wasn't there back then, but I experienced things when I was doing pot. The voice asked me to marry one fourth of july and I said yes "all in my head". Recently I took myself off the dating apps I was on. I didn't have a job or car and how could I tell someone that I believe i'm "married to God".
Before my standing fan broke, I was hearing a voice out the fan.