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ThatKidsNotRight
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It basically started as soon as I left Christianity. The voice I thought was “ God “ actually turned out to be abusive and mean. I won’t go into all the details on why I left, but the good voices came about a few weeks or months after I left. These voices make me feel so much safer and make me happy, unlike “ God’s “ voice. They always try to help me stop berating myself and even help me in social interactions ( which I have a hard time with ). They don’t try and force me to stop being mean to myself, because you can’t force that on somebody. They let me make the choice on whether or not I stop being mean to myself, even if it’s for a short time.
Sometimes we argue, but it’s mainly ( if not always ) because I’m trying to get them to stop telling me how “ good “ I am. I’m sure that they believe I’m good, and their opinions matter too. But I don’t believe, for myself personally, that I’m a good person. They’ll sometimes chastise me ( but not in a mean way ) if I do something mean, whether I do it to myself or somebody else. I don’t want to be mean though! Sometimes I get aggravated too easily, but that doesn’t excuse me for being mean.
I don’t deserve to have kind voices in my head. I’m too bad. They’re saying I’m not bad, but I know I am. I don’t want to make them sad but I deserve to suffer.
I also wanted to ask a question; does anybody know where these voices are coming from? Are they coming from me, or something else entirely? I know it isn’t coming from “ God “, because that voice never felt right to me. Also, that voice isn’t bothering me anymore, now it’s just me and the good voices.
Sometimes we argue, but it’s mainly ( if not always ) because I’m trying to get them to stop telling me how “ good “ I am. I’m sure that they believe I’m good, and their opinions matter too. But I don’t believe, for myself personally, that I’m a good person. They’ll sometimes chastise me ( but not in a mean way ) if I do something mean, whether I do it to myself or somebody else. I don’t want to be mean though! Sometimes I get aggravated too easily, but that doesn’t excuse me for being mean.
I don’t deserve to have kind voices in my head. I’m too bad. They’re saying I’m not bad, but I know I am. I don’t want to make them sad but I deserve to suffer.
I also wanted to ask a question; does anybody know where these voices are coming from? Are they coming from me, or something else entirely? I know it isn’t coming from “ God “, because that voice never felt right to me. Also, that voice isn’t bothering me anymore, now it’s just me and the good voices.