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I have to stay clean for 5 weeks

Justafriend95

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I don't know how I can possibly do this with no support on my side.. I waved my best friend goodbye last week because he was toxic to my brain.

In about 2 weeks I'm going on a 3 week holiday with swimming and stuff.. so need to be clean..

But I'm a control freak. So when it's not sh is it restricting myself on how much I can eat.. lost a lot of weight in 4-5 months. Don't want to lose more weight. I'm on egde of a healthy weight.. so want to keep it that way..

IDK how to survive 5 weeks. I want to sh now😭😭
 
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midnightphoenix

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Please try to avoid self harms, Justafriend, you deserve to be kind to yourself instead :hug:

the forum loves justafriend :love:
 
Justafriend95

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I will but I'm have no one to share thoughts with.. and no person to call if it goes wrong..
 
Justafriend95

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That would be a lot.. because I have urges now..
 
Justafriend95

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No I know I have to be clean it's always on my mind. Last hour I wanted to sh
 
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Watching pretty little lairs. I watch it for a second time, because I got traumatised 6 years ago. I want to get rid of the anxiety that I got from it. In the hope it looks fake now
 
Fairy Lucretia

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oh I have seen that before I didn't watch it right through though x
do you have any urges to SH right now? we are here to talk if you do xxxx
 
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