I'm a 28 year old man and I have had suicidal thoughts because of being skinny and having a small body frame in general, plus I still look like I could be 18 years old (good thing or bad thing?). Have had to deal with people that judge me and say things about me usually behind my back but loud enough for me to hear. I never have felt like other people ever and all I want is to be able to do what other people do and take for granted everyday. Just even being able to go to my local park without having social anxiety and feeling paranoid that everyone is watching me or laughing about how I look. It upsets me so much and I've been on anti depressants but stopped as I don't want to become dependant on them. I don't know what to do, feels like nobody understands me or can help me. I'm sick and tired of being like this and having these problems and starting to hate people because of how some have treated me. Please any help or advice not sure where else to turn.