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Fluppyapple
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- Jan 7, 2018
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I have been seeking reassurance a lot lately not like making sure everything's in order the door is closed like that its these thoughts they never go away if I do something really good better than others I get thoughts like howcome I am so good at this while others aren't what did I do to get to this level maybe I am not good at it I just lucky that time what if my abilities go away from me after a while to make sure I still possess the abilities I have I gotta keep repeating the same stuff it doesn't stop with only one time once I am done repeating and get the reassurance I wanted another thought enters my mind these thoughts constantly keep me worrying about the same thing no matter how many times I reassure myself I keep getting them in my mind its not always about the same thing I have been having ocd since I was little I didn't know it was ocd I would rituals like skipping every odd step in stairs I was led to thinking these would keep bad things from happening by my mind and it was so stupid and my friends would make fun of me for that I needed to stop and these thoughts stopped coming back I have always had these thoughts but I would say I don't care whatever happens to me I am good with whatever so these thoughts did make me do those things I did now its back again I seem to get these thoughts more when I am alone and not doing anything its not always the same thing my mind wants me to reassure when I get over one another one comes in I cant stop reassuring until I get some reassurance from other people getting reassurance from other people helps me keep these thoughts a little longer than self assurance