i have no choice-well that is how it feels

Fairy Lucretia

Fairy Lucretia

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so terrified am i of abandonment the self harming is increasing to dangerous levels
i know i can't go into details but it is life threatening

manager of MH centre said 'you know what you are doing'
yes i do but that doesn't make the emotional pain any easier to avoid doing it

so scared of being abandoned-the terror is unreal

bought some pretty lace arm sleeves to cover my scars
get so ashamed of them if people accidently see them

but at other times its like i want to shove them under their nose and say 'this is my pain-this is how i deal with my pain!'

i need therapy x
 
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Hi Lu,
I'm sorry your so poorly right now, your right you do need therapy.
Can you get an advocate that can help you fight for some therapy.
Hope you feel better soon.
Take care honey.
 
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so terrified am i of abandonment
i need therapy x
I can relate to this, but I don't SH I just pick on myself day after day, calling myself names.

goes back to being 5 years old and a dream I had I was so scared its never left me.