- Apr 8, 2020
- New England
I am so sick of having anxieties and being afraid all of the time.I worry about every little thing.It has been so hard for me since my husband passed away 16 years ago he always knew what to do and now I have to fend for myself and it actually scares me.Night time is the worse .What if something breaks down.Cant call anyone because my handiman wont answer the phone and my land lady doesn t want me to call in the middle of the night.I am sick and tired of thinking of scary thoughts.I dont like being alone anymore.Of course I have no choice.I am missing my mom terribly you dont know how bad I want to call her but she is gone too.We didnt always get along but I still loved her.Being alone stinks.I also have tremors because of my falling twice.I wish I could get my kids to understand how much i need them just to talk to them,I have no other family members.I try to keep busy . I absolutely hate it when my friend leaves.This is so odd because well u figure this one out i am lonely yet I dont feel comfortable around some people how can u be lonely nad not want company at the same time? Thank God to all my friends here I love you all.