I hate myself

[TOONAFISH]

I despise what i have become. I have no control anymore. I try to hide it but it is gettin too much. Hubby out tonite. all alone. i wish i could cope better. i need to take a stand. where do i start?

 

[Lady Summer Isles]

I despise what i have become. I have no control anymore. I try to hide it but it is gettin too much. Hubby out tonite. all alone. i wish i could cope better. i need to take a stand. where do i start?

Hey Toonafish
Sorry you are feeling like this. I understand that feeling of no control, it's horrible and one of my worst fears.

Is your hubby out for long tonight?

I live down south in England but we've just arrived for a holiday up in Scotland and are staying with my in-laws in Dunfermline just for tonight.

Wish I had some answers for you. Just thought I'd say hello and send a hug
Lady T

 

[skyblue]

I despise what i have become. I have no control anymore. I try to hide it but it is gettin too much. Hubby out tonite. all alone. i wish i could cope better. i need to take a stand. where do i start?

Toona ,

Why do you think you have no control Toona, how do you mean ?

I'm really no good staying at home alone either. My partners going away for 5 days in June and I'm dreading it, I hate being alone, it's horrible. I seem to feel so depressed.

When you say you wish you could cope better, in what way Toona, with your feelings and illness ?

Am here if you want to talk.

xx

 

[DELATEXT]

Terrible, when you feel so low and bad, hope you can feel better
soon, can Doctor not help more ??
I mentioned SAMH to you in a previous post, can you contact them, they could give you support ??

 

[TOONAFISH]

Sorry for my post i was feeling quite bad last nite. Not so bad this morning.

It comes and goes. I hate not knowing about my illness, but i suppose noone knows whats coming there way. just been a bit self obsessed i suppose.

this eating disorder is driving me mad. it goes for so long but always returns. that is the loss of control.

thanks for replies xxxx