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i hate myself and i want to die

Fairy Lucretia

Fairy Lucretia

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im ready to go
if something happened to take it out of my hands then it would be a relief

it's not selfish ,it's barely choice

im so calm not flustered all upset over emotional Lu that i usually am

i simply don't see the point in going on for the next 40 or 50 years when the pain can end now

best case ,i see mummy again or there is nothingness

worst case is hell or i have to live my life over again

im just ready x
 
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Do you really want to deprive me of my new friend? And this forum of its most caring and supportive poster? Fairy Lu, it doesn't have to be 40 or 50 years of pain, things can change (and I know that because it happened for me); you are such a special person with a massive heart, you deserve a better life and I'm not going to guarantee you one, but I do know that there are so many people here who want you to have one and who would do what they could to help you get one.

If there is such a thing as eternal life, then mummy won't mind waiting another 40 or 50 years (what is that when measured against eternity?); if there's nothing, then you'll never know what might have changed in those years ahead (and again, they are nothing compared to forever). You need a reason to live? The people here who your posts help, every day; your family and others who know you for the special person you are.

It's such a pity you hate yourself, because so many people love you - and we just wish we could make you love yourself.
 
Anime-Alchemy

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Please don't Fairy Lucretia. People care, love and admire you. You are highly thought of.
You are going through a very tough time but you will get through this.
You are a good and strong person.
You are not alone, you can lean on us anytime.
 
Fairy Lucretia

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thank you
but it's no use
i just want to go

im so tired and scared and sad
i have nothing ,i have no one

im useless pathetic and a waste of space

thank you for trying to help ma nd being so kind but i just don't deserve it

im sorry i can't reply to private messages ,im too confused can't concentrate to read properly

am going to bed and staying there until i die
 
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thank you
but it's no use
i just want to go

im so tired and scared and sad
i have nothing ,i have no one

im useless pathetic and a waste of space

thank you for trying to help ma nd being so kind but i just don't deserve it

im sorry i can't reply to private messages ,im too confused can't concentrate to read properly

am going to bed and staying there until i die
How are you doing my lovely?
 
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I know that feeling of wanting to stay in bed and have nothing to do with the world.

It's exhausting to drag yourself out of bed and deal with daily tasks.

Is this about your sister? Or about everything that's been going on with your Aunt and Maddie? How is Maddie by the way?

Please don't hurt yourself. I do love you and I care for you so much. We're all here for you. x

:hug:
 
letmein

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maybe your god be with you.........
 
Not_Crazy_Yet

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Hi Lu. No lengthy reply. Just sending you hugs.
 
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rachelangelo

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I don't know all the details behind why you feel so hopeless, but, please, before you make any final decision, call the National Suicide Helpline and speak with someone. Their phone number is 1-800-273-8255. They are open 24 hours a day. I'm praying for you!
 
Prairie Sky

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Nothing for over a week. I hope you are okay...
 
Fairy Lucretia

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Nothing for over a week. I hope you are okay...
thanks for your concern
im in a bad way mentally and physically
haven't been on here as i feel am not wanted-my issues nothing to do with anyone

i love all of you
Lu x

sorry i can't reply to private messages right now
but i read them and it made my heart smile that people care thank you x
 
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Prairie Sky

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Oh don't feel that way, of course you're wanted! What is a place like this for but to support each other?

I am so glad to see you back, I was worried!!

:hug5:
 
letmein

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will pray for you lu.... may your god be with you.
 
Fairy Lucretia

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i feel so hopeless and scared
i have really bad sickness which is making me worse

and i think there might be something wrong with winston
im sorry
i know you are all sick of me and tired of me saying this but i really do just want to die
 
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