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I had a strange afternoon

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Glassy Lip

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I have not slept much lately. I did not sleep at all last night and was laying down today trying to catch a nap. Well, I was thinking quietly to myself but kept unintentionally answering my questions and thoughts out loud. This went on until I fell alseep, about an hour or longer. I have never heard voices before in my life and I really was only answering my own thoughts but outloud. I am alone 95% of the time so I do talk to myself out loud at times bit this was different. I slept for three hours and feel better all around now but will definitely be up all freaking night with insomnia again. Life sucks.
 
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Oh yeah, I have been drinking and using more drugs than usual last few days. I had sex with two women I did not know at the same time on Wednesday night and then did it again last night. It was nice being around other people for a change and they are nice but this is the type of life I have not lived in 10 years or so. I had unprotected sex with total strangers basically numerous times. I need structure in my life. I need a job and a mutual, caring relationship with a nice women. Not two bisexual sluts I meet at the bar though they are nice girls just the same. I need help bad.
 
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Oh yeah, I have been drinking and using more drugs than usual last few days. I had sex with two women I did not know at the same time on Wednesday night and then did it again last night. It was nice being around other people for a change and they are nice but this is the type of life I have not lived in 10 years or so. I had unprotected sex with total strangers basically numerous times. I need structure in my life. I need a job and a mutual, caring relationship with a nice women. Not two bisexual sluts I meet at the bar though they are nice girls just the same. I need help bad.
Drugs, alcohol and unsafe sex are quick distractions which wouldn't help long term. Sure you know this already.

How do you feel the next day after alcohol and drugs?

You sound like you want to help yourself. Can you start small and work towards putting the building blocks in place?

Stay safe! 💪👍
 
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Also are you on any mediation at the moment?
 
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I do know this already, I am almost 40 years old. Thing is, I used to laugh when asked questions like this by mental health workers but it really does coorelate to your mental state (mine at least). I don't drink a lot and only beer so the next day is never bad for me physically. If I take too many opiates the day before I will need at least one nap.

I have never meditated on my own besides a position I call the coffin pose. I have done meditation in rehab, jail and the mental hospital. They use it in those places and it is mandatory. I can calm down and slow my breathing by laying on my back when trying to nap in what I call the coffin pose. Eyes closed, hands clasped over my chest, legs straight and even while laying on my back.

Thanks for the reply, I have not slept again and the sun just rose.
 
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I do know this already, I am almost 40 years old. Thing is, I used to laugh when asked questions like this by mental health workers but it really does coorelate to your mental state (mine at least). I don't drink a lot and only beer so the next day is never bad for me physically. If I take too many opiates the day before I will need at least one nap.

I have never meditated on my own besides a position I call the coffin pose. I have done meditation in rehab, jail and the mental hospital. They use it in those places and it is mandatory. I can calm down and slow my breathing by laying on my back when trying to nap in what I call the coffin pose. Eyes closed, hands clasped over my chest, legs straight and even while laying on my back.

Thanks for the reply, I have not slept again and the sun just rose.
Sorry, I guess its the standard thing to say and I am not a therapist :)

I can't even take 3 beers just now as the next day I feel a lot worse and am almost paralyzed. Staying off drink and not doing drugs keeps me at least "functional".

Di9
 
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^^^ That's good, I wish you continued smooth sailing.
 
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Hope the sleeping improves for you.

GL!

Di9
 
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Hey Di9, if you're up and around and feel like talking I'm here, thanks
 
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Yo, my body keeps jolting me out of a calmness. I can't tell if I am just falling asleep when it happens and it wakes me up or if it scares me or what. I know I'm overtired but that's all I know. I'll keep checking here to see if anyone is awake and has replied
 
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Oh yeah, I have been drinking and using more drugs than usual last few days. I had sex with two women I did not know at the same time on Wednesday night and then did it again last night. It was nice being around other people for a change and they are nice but this is the type of life I have not lived in 10 years or so. I had unprotected sex with total strangers basically numerous times. I need structure in my life. I need a job and a mutual, caring relationship with a nice women. Not two bisexual sluts I meet at the bar though they are nice girls just the same. I need help bad.
Can you please not call a woman a slut because she slept with you. It is severely triggering for someone who has had a traumatic past hearing words like that. I dont mean to argue at all and I truly hope you're feeling better but. this is a safe space. I am not sure what the difference between a "nice girl" and a "slut" is. Maybe not categorizing people in that way could be a step to having caring relationships
 
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Yo, my body keeps jolting me out of a calmness. I can't tell if I am just falling asleep when it happens and it wakes me up or if it scares me or what. I know I'm overtired but that's all I know. I'll keep checking here to see if anyone is awake and has replied
Did you get a chat going outwith this thread last night?

Di9
 
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No. I get online a few times a day. I keep checking back here.
 
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