- Sep 16, 2020
I had a mental breakdown because of my past this last Friday I got drunk something I don't do a lot of. And I was married and I was with the same woman for a long time she used to abuse me. So I've been dating this one girl for about a year. She's never once hit me I love her. I kept asking to quit getting hit over and over and that I was being abused I don't remember the night but she's never put her hands on me so I must have been talking about my ex-wife. I do have this problem when someone tries to touch my face and she noticed it long time ago I flinch and I'm used to someone hitting me I've been divorced since 2016. And I really don't know what to do. I really thought I found the one. She has been wonderful to me but she said if I do it once I'll do it again. And she's talking about the drinking. And everything else I guess she has her own pass and I've always looked past it because I thought that's what you're supposed to do when you're with someone. I was so scared that night when I was in the car and she was driving. But I'm not scared of her she's never done anything to hurt me. And I did not put my hands on her or anything. I do get angry sometimes and upset I'm not perfect. In the last year since we've been together she's got drunk once and I got drunk last Friday we've had a few drinks here and there but neither one of us has ever got drunk. My ex-wife about 2 weeks ago now did email me she told me I was worthless and that I was garbage and that I was a failure and I'm always going to be that. And quite a few other things. I don't know why I did what I did.