- Nov 8, 2014
If posted a few times but things seem to be getting worse. My best friend and only person I talked to about my feelings committed suicide a week before Xmas. The last time I talked to him I made him mad. My Aunt who I do talk a little bit too and she has got me this far dealing with my illness, is dying a slow death. I also know this sounds crazy. But I feel like there is an outside force on my life a negative one. So much bad stuff happens to me that even others acknowledge it. I wish I could just disappear and start over. Just completely leave this life and everyone I know behind. I watch the daily news and stuff uploaded to social media, and I've honestly lit all hope for human kind. I don't know what to do or how to feel better. I'm so lost and tired.