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I grew up in a sex cult and now I have trust issues

TalulahBlank

TalulahBlank

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Jan 25, 2020
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California US
My parents joined a sex cult when I was about 4 y/o. We moved onto their rural property and became part of their community, it was all communal living, but I was very isolated. I was 1 of 5 children in the cult, and the only girl, so I didn’t make any close bonds (also I was homeschooled).
I was luckily, mostly separated from the ‘events’ my parents took part in. However, thats all that the other adults would talk to me about, ‘one day you’ll grow up and enjoy all this too’ ‘what do you know about what your mommy and daddy do here?’ ‘Do you have any interest in all this yet?’. I was in a word, being groomed. And things only got worse as a got older.
I didn’t officially leave the cult until I was 12 y/o, when my mom tried to force me to take a sexuality class when I absolutely wasn’t ready (My cool dad got me out of there). Looking back on it now, I know my experience there has shaped all my fearful habits. Im 19 y/o now and I’m very anxious, very shy. I don’t trust a lot of people with my feelings let alone my body. And the concept of a public social media presence frightens me. I don’t think I’m asocial, I really like going out and making new friends, but my relationships never grow to more than very simple. I’m very lonely and isolated, I don’t have anyone that I can really talk to about personal topics like anxiety and depression. I appreciate I found this forum site.
 
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Zackthemaniac

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Oct 16, 2019
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North Carolina
Really sorry you were forced into that enviorment. Atleast you were young and werent forced to do the sexual activities. Hope you can find somebody to connect yo in the future. Just got to take things slow !
 
Duggie

Duggie

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Croydon
All Cults use NLP and emotional grooming is part of their brainwashing process.
 
Chanda15

Chanda15

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Jan 25, 2020
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Location
Liverpool
Here if you need to chat, just so glad you're now away from all that 💞
 
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