- Oct 21, 2018
There are good days and there are also bad days and what i mean by those days are the days where you are successful in not doing any "art" on your skin and today is one of those goods. These are the days i cherish the most where in I over come the nagging pain and to not grab a "pencil" to draw on my wrist or on my arms. I grew up always trying to fight or hide the pain i keep inside and the outcome was to always to make a canvas of pain on my skin. I then realize that i do this not because i'm crazy like what most people say and the brand that most people label me. I do this because, this is the only pain I have a control of and doing this lessen the pain i feel in my heart. Making my skin as a canvas of my pain is a way of displacing the anger, pain, despair and other negative emotions i feel inside. making a canvas out of your skin is an addiction for me, while others drown themselves with other substance to forget. I cover myself with 'art' to forget the pain. Seeing my art produce a 'red paint' makes me somewhat more calmer and more relaxed, because physical pain is easier to deal with than emotional one. I wish everyday is like today. Just calm and peaceful.