- Jun 26, 2014
- Avenue Q in the US
And I have to say that it made me furious. There were quite a few lies in it that were fed to the doctor by the crazy lady who attacked me, comments that were out of context without the explanation behind them which were omitted, signs that I had Asperger’s during the testing but nothing ever suggested that more tests to be done to properly diagnose me, and the worst thing of all being written is that my behavior was why I was being bullied and it was my “own doing.” The paper mentioned me being put into the adaptive gym class but made it to be my fault and never made note of how I was becoming more and more terrified of attending class because I was being sexually assaulted constantly in the locker room before and after class. I was afraid of talking to any of the other guys because I was obviously afraid of being sexually assaulted even more and I also knew some would turn anything I said into fuel for bullying me even more. At least one had made fun of my speech impediment in the past so of course I would be weary of interacting with them. I was clearly showing signs of fear and a natural reaction of trying to prevent myself from being sexually assaulted whenever I turned to face the lockers. No one ever made me feel like it wasn’t my fault and that I could talk about it without any judgement and that it wasn’t my fault somehow. This is why I tried to repress all of the assaults and not talk about it for years because I thought that maybe it was my fault and that everyone else would say the same thing. I can’t believe a psych evaluation would even suggest that being afraid of my classmates after being sexually assaulted was my own fault when anyone in my situation would be doing the same. There was no mention of the assault or even hint that maybe I was afraid of gym class and my classmates for that period for a very good reason. The paper also had clues that I had Asperger’s but it was only said that I had signs of it but no order to find out. The test was done in 2001 and I wasn’t properly diagnosed until I was a senior in 2003. That’s a long time for anyone to struggle with learning certain subjects and not getting the proper learning support necessary. The school system definitely failed me.