- Apr 22, 2020
I don't think I will ever be able to accept myself. I really do hate the way I look and act. I've tried changing myself but nothing seems to work. For some reason I can't seem to look or act natural, in a way that fits well with other people. Everything I do or no matter how I dress just makes me stand out in the most uncomfortable ways. There's the weight gain, the hirsutism, the uninteresting personality. I hate my hair and my face and just myself completely. I honestly feel sick sometimes when I look in the mirror. It used to be so bad that I even had trouble eating for a few days. I try to be positive and move forward from this, but it doesn't matter what I do. I'll always have this body and this mind. I don't want to be me anymore.