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I have dealt with addiction issues
I have suffered depression
I want to kill myself.
People turn their backs on you. Close friends.
What's the point. My son would be better off without me.
 
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Hi, do you think you might hurt your self ?
 
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You have a lovely son who loves you and you must love him too, I know what its like with addiction issues and bad depression but there is a way through it and not one person here will turn their backs on you.
 
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It may help to have a look at these two pages on the forum: Suicidal Crisis and Mental Health Forum - Getting Help about what to do if you're feeling suicidal, or if you need emergency help. I hope you can use the forum for support during this difficult time.

If you’re thinking about suicide and are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number (i.e. in the UK call 999, in the USA or Canada call 911, in Australia call 000 and in New Zealand call 111) or call the international emergency number of 112.

If you have been affected by the contents of this thread and would like to speak to someone about your feelings you can call one of the following helplines:

In the UK and Ireland, the Samaritans can be contacted on 116 123.
In the US, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255.
In Canada, the Suicide Prevention Service on 1.833.456.4566.
In Australia, the crisis support service Lifeline is on 13 11 14.
In New Zealand, the Need to Talk service is on 1737 or 080017371737.
Other international helplines can be found at www.befrienders.org.

Specifically for Ireland you can text...

50808 (50808 - Text About It) is a free, confidential 24/7 national crisis-intervention text-message service. It can be reached by texting HELLO to 50808
 
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I have dealt with addiction issues
I have suffered depression
I want to kill myself.
People turn their backs on you. Close friends.
What's the point. My son would be better off without me.
Keep trying, one day at a time.
Remember you are not alone in this and you aren't the only one going through this fight.

Your son will need you right through his life. He may get married and you will need to be there. He may have children and you will need to be there.

Rest
 
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What does it matter? My son is better without me.
 
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Keep trying, one day at a time.
Remember you are not alone in this and you aren't the only one going through this fight.

Your son will need you right through his life. He may get married and you will need to be there. He may have children and you will need to be there.

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I am alone
 
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I posted a thread earlier. Nobody gives a flying fuck. Its only when you say suicidal you get a response. Separate thread
 
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Bobbyyewing, I am sorry that I did not see your earlier thread as I would of spoken to you on it.
 
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Bobbyewing - many yrs ago in my 20's I had a brother die with cancer (32 yrs old). He left behind a 5/6 yrs old son (my nephew) and wife. Go forward 8/9 yrs and his wife died with cancer - that left 14/15 yr old alone with no parents. I gladly took him. The hurt and pain becomes sooo widespread when you lose someone you love so much - and in midst of hurting have to watch a child suffer too. Nephew grew up, got married, had kids, divorced went thru a lot - he didn't have a parent to call - he had an aunt. Last fall (he's now in late 40's) (prone to depression) he called to have one of our many, many talks - he asked me "Do you think my Daddy would be proud of me?" So Bobbyewing - you hang in there with everything you've got! Your son would NOT be better off without you. Don't leave him where all his big life events have to be shared with others, when he's wanting his daddy to share them with - fight as hard as you can so YOU can assure that child how proud you are of him throughout the years to come. Please take care..
 
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I posted a thread earlier. Nobody gives a flying fuck. Its only when you say suicidal you get a response. Separate thread
I replied to one earlier
I will go and find it
I remember your story, i think your other post you said you were a certain number of days without drinking
 
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The earlier thread

What happens i think, is that the more people post on a thread, the more it stays at the top of the page and so more people read it.

Do you think you have a problem with alcohol?
What do people usually do when drinking is a problem?

I have been drinking today, earlier, and i have sat and had dinner now, stopped and cleaned up and put the news on. Had coffee and now i am going to have a wash. I know some people cannot just stop. I was listening to music also and it helped snap my mind out of where it was.
 
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I am alone
We're all alone really.

You do have a child though, and so that is a responsibility. You are going to have to get yourself better for him. If he has difficulties in his life, he is going to need you. Life is so hard, really hard, and so a person who loves us unconditionally is essential.

I'm sure you are a much better dad than mine is. I still need him, over 40, i need help, and he doesn't help me.

Nobody is helping you?

Many of us here are on our own and so this connection to others on the forum is essential.

I do care, we do care, you may think it is a stupid thing to say but it is true.
 
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I posted a thread earlier. Nobody gives a flying fuck. Its only when you say suicidal you get a response. Separate thread
I am sorry Bobbyewing. I saw your earlier thread last night and I do care. I did not respond because in my mind I thought that I wasn't the right person to respond. I wasn't feeling well. I replied and then erased. Sometimes I get confused and sad, but I care. You have a son that loves you. I have a son too. I get those thoughts and it makes me feel cruel and uncaring. Not sure if my responses are appropriate. Silence sometimes is listening and trying to understand. Trying to understand my mind too so in a sense I felt that my post reply would be irrelevant or selfish or that you would want to hear from someone different just not me. Please stay safe. Your son loves you and probably sees you way differently than you see yourself. If you want to talk feel free to PM me or talk here. 💗
 
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Sir. I just want to say that your son will forever suffer your loss if you leave him. I've been there where you are. I know it is hell but as the years go by things can change.

I hope you find peace. Stay around for your son.
 
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