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I feel seriously depressed over this, must I feel bad?

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JoshBrathe95

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I remember once reminiscing my childhood times spent with a friend when we were little children around the age of 4 or 5, I hung around with her without clothes on, we were young kids. What really disturbed me is when I realized that I may have masturbated over one of the times I saw her naked like when I was 14-16 (I really cannot remember) and now I hate myself for being so stupid and unaware of what I was picturing at the time; in my head I would not have pictured her figure vividly nor in great detail so the image in my head was not exactly of her as a little kid nor as a teenager, a mix perhaps. For the past few weeks I've been stressing to get over it but now I seek support and reassurance from someone, I feel so depressed over this!! and a bit of reassurance I am NOT attracted to young girls, pedophilia grosses me out but I can't help but sometimes feel like I am that low, I am certain that I am not that sick but sometimes when the thought comes across my head I feel worried about myself, when something worries me I cannot simply forget it. Please, be honest.
 
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lovagemuffin

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maybe your just afraid that you are that's different from being one.
 
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I honestly think you can give yourself a break on this. You would know if you were attracted to children sexually. Sometimes the mind does strange things. I think you're okay,josh. Big hugs!
 
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I'm inclined to agree with the others. You're being too hard on yourself. Your mid teens are not easy, you're going through puberty and a lot of changes and probably masturbating over many different things! Please try not to worry. A thought is just a thought. You've not caused any harm or done any damage.

If you are still struggling with worry, perhaps just tell yourself you'll keep a check on how you're feeling and, if things progress, or you become increasingly worried, you'll go to your GP or someone for help.
 
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mind_the_cones

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For so long, I felt guilty about Masturbating. Not only did I feel like I was a pervert, I felt like I had sexually assaulted the people I had thought about :( And I felt as though I deserved to be punished for what I considered to be grievous crimes, sometimes against people I cared about. In fact, guilt about Masturbation partly caused me to become seriously depressed...

Please, please don't feel guilty about this! Thoughts are NOT the same as actions - you haven't raped anyone, and you are NOT a paedophile!

Hope this helps, and that you feel better soon :)

Matthew
 
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