- Dec 19, 2014
I remember once reminiscing my childhood times spent with a friend when we were little children around the age of 4 or 5, I hung around with her without clothes on, we were young kids. What really disturbed me is when I realized that I may have masturbated over one of the times I saw her naked like when I was 14-16 (I really cannot remember) and now I hate myself for being so stupid and unaware of what I was picturing at the time; in my head I would not have pictured her figure vividly nor in great detail so the image in my head was not exactly of her as a little kid nor as a teenager, a mix perhaps. For the past few weeks I've been stressing to get over it but now I seek support and reassurance from someone, I feel so depressed over this!! and a bit of reassurance I am NOT attracted to young girls, pedophilia grosses me out but I can't help but sometimes feel like I am that low, I am certain that I am not that sick but sometimes when the thought comes across my head I feel worried about myself, when something worries me I cannot simply forget it. Please, be honest.