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I feel okay

~minnie~

~minnie~

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I rang the crisis team last night and left a message for them to get
back to me cos I needed to talk to someone
someone rang me back after 2 and a half hours later but I was still
awake anyway and I told her about the man that was standing outside
my flat and that he watching my flat and I told her I went outside
and asked the man had god sent him to hurt me? he told me to go back
in the flat or he would call the police, so I went back in but he was
still standing there looking at my flat and she said to me that I
sounded unwell to her on the phone and that I sounded
agitated,paranoid and she asked me to go to a and e but I told her I
cant because people are out to get me, so she is ringing my social
worker on monday to tell her that I may be unwell, I told her that I
feel okay though and she said that I wouldnt know that I am becoming
unwell only people around me would notice.she asked me if the
television was talking to me and I told her yes that the people were
talking about me on the television and thats why I dont want to watch
television and she asked me to go to a and e to be assessed but said
that there will be a long wait because they are busy and I said to
her that I wasnt prepared to sit their for 7hours to see someone like
last time(about two years ago) cos that just made me feel ten times
worse so she told me not to stay in the car of a night and not to go
for walks in the early hours of the morning but I told her that I
only do this because no one else is out at that time of morning but
she said its not safe


I went to hospital to visit my nan tonight and on the way home my two
cousins went the chip shop for their tea and they asked me if I
wanted anything and I said no, so I waited in the car. when they got
back in the car they asked me did I want kfc so I told them that I
would get my tea on the way home later but my cousins knew that I
wasnt going to eat anything so they stopped outside kfc and told me
to go and get something, but I said to them that I didnt want to go
in (cos there were too many people in there) and they just made me go
in, I was so angry at them for making me go in this shop with all
these people.... I walked in and they all looked at me their eyes
following me to the counter...I had a knot in my stomach and I felt
the tears well up in my eyes. I ordered my food and got given it but
couldnt wait to get out of the shop in fear that these people were
going to do something to me. I got back in the car and my cousins
said to me that wasnt hard was it.. I just ignore them.
Later on we went to the supermarket and I told my cousin I would wait
in the car and she said to go in with her, so I told her not to leave
me on my own...I felt so uneasy walking round the shop...people were
staring at me whispering about me

I dont feel agitated,paraniod and unwell like the woman said at the
crisis team I feel okay.

I am sat here now in my flat with the blinds open making sure no on
is outside and listening to my music to drown out the voices...Kill
them before they get you, they keep shouting at me
I have had about 5hours sleep this week I dont feel tired

sorry for the long post I just needed to get it off my chest
 
Fedup

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Minnie , you do sound unwell . Could a friend/relative come and stay with you for a few days?
 
~minnie~

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I dont want anyone to stay with me because I dont trust them
I couldnt even go to a and e because of all the people

I feel okay in myself
 
KP1

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Glad you feel ok in your self Minnie. Maybe your support team could coem and see you at home tomorrow as this sounds like it would be more helpful to you.
Take care KP :hug:
 
KP1

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Hi Minnie how are you doing?
KP:hug:
 
~minnie~

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I went to a and e the following day and they sectioned me, I have just been discharged from hospital today with the home treatment team coming to my flat everyday to make sure I am okay I was very angry in them sectioning me as I didnt need to go to hospital but they though otherwise but I am now at home with tablets till the depot injections kick in then I will be off the tablets.

thanks for your replies
 
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Sorry youve not been too good minnie. At least your getting some help tho

Take care
 
KP1

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Glad you are back home at least it wasn't too long in hospital.
Take care. KP:hug:
 
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