- Jan 31, 2019
- White Plains, NY
With Klonopin, Gabapentin, and Valium. I wish I'd stopped taking drugs a year ago. I was titrating down using only Librium. And nothing else. 20 mg a day. The equivalent of one 5 mg Valium. I was succeeding. Then I panicked. And I started stockpiling everything again. Now I'm in worse shape than ever. I feel sick everyday. Forget about night. I can't even make it through the morning or daytime without feeling off the scales terror and dread. I find myself on the floor rather than the bed as it somehow feels safer down there. I eat on the floor. I cry on the floor. I wish Cuddles would show up and rescue me.