- Jun 13, 2021
Hi, at the beginning I would like to point out that my English is not good because I come from Polish. But getting to the bottom of it. I've been lonely for a long time. I've never had a real friend. I can't open myself to anyone because I feel like I'm imposing myself. I had a suicide attempt before but I never tell anyone about it because people will feel sorry for me and I hate it. Unfortunately, suicidal thoughts have returned for several weeks and I have no one to tell about it. I have no one to write to, no one to talk to. I mean, I have friends, but I just don't trust anyone enough to tell you about it. I always wake up or unlock my phone hoping for even a silly message. How was your day. no one has ever written that for nothing and I will not write it because these thoughts are too strong. I will not go to a psychologist because the family will think that I am a psychopath. I just think about disappearing and no one will notice.