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I feel lonely and I want to disappear

Sxzopen

Sxzopen

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Hi, at the beginning I would like to point out that my English is not good because I come from Polish. But getting to the bottom of it. I've been lonely for a long time. I've never had a real friend. I can't open myself to anyone because I feel like I'm imposing myself. I had a suicide attempt before but I never tell anyone about it because people will feel sorry for me and I hate it. Unfortunately, suicidal thoughts have returned for several weeks and I have no one to tell about it. I have no one to write to, no one to talk to. I mean, I have friends, but I just don't trust anyone enough to tell you about it. I always wake up or unlock my phone hoping for even a silly message. How was your day. no one has ever written that for nothing and I will not write it because these thoughts are too strong. I will not go to a psychologist because the family will think that I am a psychopath. I just think about disappearing and no one will notice.
 
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Alexander Ypsilantis

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Hi, at the beginning I would like to point out that my English is not good because I come from Polish. But getting to the bottom of it. I've been lonely for a long time. I've never had a real friend. I can't open myself to anyone because I feel like I'm imposing myself. I had a suicide attempt before but I never tell anyone about it because people will feel sorry for me and I hate it. Unfortunately, suicidal thoughts have returned for several weeks and I have no one to tell about it. I have no one to write to, no one to talk to. I mean, I have friends, but I just don't trust anyone enough to tell you about it. I always wake up or unlock my phone hoping for even a silly message. How was your day. no one has ever written that for nothing and I will not write it because these thoughts are too strong. I will not go to a psychologist because the family will think that I am a psychopath. I just think about disappearing and no one will notice.
You've come to the right place to discuss what you've been feeling, many in these forums feel the same way. I know I have.

Please feel free to share your feelings and thoughts, that's what this forum is about. We have many posters who have felt depressed and discouraged enough to think about making the ultimate mistake-and that's what it would be. I have felt that way before.

I find that when I focus on helping other people my own problems seem to reduce in intensity a little bit. Hopefully with the international pandemic receding we'll get an opportunity to volunteer and help others more. That would make our own burdens more tolerable. What are your thoughts, Sxzopen?
 
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Trixie416

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Hi, at the beginning I would like to point out that my English is not good because I come from Polish. But getting to the bottom of it. I've been lonely for a long time. I've never had a real friend. I can't open myself to anyone because I feel like I'm imposing myself. I had a suicide attempt before but I never tell anyone about it because people will feel sorry for me and I hate it. Unfortunately, suicidal thoughts have returned for several weeks and I have no one to tell about it. I have no one to write to, no one to talk to. I mean, I have friends, but I just don't trust anyone enough to tell you about it. I always wake up or unlock my phone hoping for even a silly message. How was your day. no one has ever written that for nothing and I will not write it because these thoughts are too strong. I will not go to a psychologist because the family will think that I am a psychopath. I just think about disappearing and no one will notice.
Sxzopen, please, don't disappear. People like me need people like you. We're the same. We are feeling hurt. I'm sorry for you. You're not a psycopath. You have feelings. It's a good thing. Now, they're not feeling so good but you and I BOTH found ourselves here, today. Friends. You're not alone.
 
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Sxzopen :welcome:

you find the right place here you can share whatever you like
and how was your day in fact what happened ?


:grouphug:🕯💐
 
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Pollypop

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Hello Sxzopen,
i‘m really glad you found the forum.

At times life can be unhappy and lonely.
Iv’e felt like you do so I understand.

There are lovely people here who will share things
and help if they can.

Please stay with us here and chat whenever you want.

Keep yourself safe.
 
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WishIWasaBetazoid

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Hi, at the beginning I would like to point out that my English is not good because I come from Polish. But getting to the bottom of it. I've been lonely for a long time. I've never had a real friend. I can't open myself to anyone because I feel like I'm imposing myself. I had a suicide attempt before but I never tell anyone about it because people will feel sorry for me and I hate it. Unfortunately, suicidal thoughts have returned for several weeks and I have no one to tell about it. I have no one to write to, no one to talk to. I mean, I have friends, but I just don't trust anyone enough to tell you about it. I always wake up or unlock my phone hoping for even a silly message. How was your day. no one has ever written that for nothing and I will not write it because these thoughts are too strong. I will not go to a psychologist because the family will think that I am a psychopath. I just think about disappearing and no one will notice.
I feel like this. I'm incredibly lonely.
 
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ManDss

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Loneliness is your main problem ? Been mine too since long, and its horrific. But trough the time Ive find ways to cope. If you are dealing with loneliness sometimes there are ways to cope, online forums like this is one, so you can tell everything you can to other people.
 
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Lukcy2019

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Hi, at the beginning I would like to point out that my English is not good because I come from Polish. But getting to the bottom of it. I've been lonely for a long time. I've never had a real friend. I can't open myself to anyone because I feel like I'm imposing myself. I had a suicide attempt before but I never tell anyone about it because people will feel sorry for me and I hate it. Unfortunately, suicidal thoughts have returned for several weeks and I have no one to tell about it. I have no one to write to, no one to talk to. I mean, I have friends, but I just don't trust anyone enough to tell you about it. I always wake up or unlock my phone hoping for even a silly message. How was your day. no one has ever written that for nothing and I will not write it because these thoughts are too strong. I will not go to a psychologist because the family will think that I am a psychopath. I just think about disappearing and no one will notice.
Hi
Sorry to hear that you are having issues. You are not alone at all! Close your eyes for a minute and imagine that you are no longer able to see anything, then open your eyes. How does it feel? Is not great that you can see, talk, hear, walk, ..... We all have something that I believe no other creature has, and that's our strong feeling. You have everything to make good friends. I know it's hard to find good friends but it's possible. Did you know that there are people out there that doctors told them they only have a few months left? And do you know what? They still don't lose their hope. This is what I always tell myself before I sleep, that tomorrow is another day and hopefully I make the most of it. Life is the greatest gift that been given to you and you so special that God chosen you to be here on this planet. Now I have a question for you. Would you be thankful that you have this special gift or you still thinking of destroying it? So when someone you love gives you a nice present, do you keep it for the rest of your life or you dump it at some point? I'm suffering from depression, anxiety, and other illnesses every millisecond of this life, but I still thank God for everything. I'm sure I'm here for a reason and when my time is up, he will take me, so there is no need to kill myself. And by the way, I'm your friend and you can talk to me anytime. I don't think I can leave my contact details here as it's not permitted but I'm sure we can chat by phone or text somehow.
Hope this help!!!
Talk soon
 
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